Light?or Darkness?

Yesterday at cg Jit spoke about being the light. That sounds pretty weird,right?Light?What is it all about?Sounds funny,right?Well,it actually meant being different from the others around us. As christians,we are called the light of the world and that we should always shine among our friends.Shine as in be different and act correctly,not impressing people with how good we are in this or how good we are in that..Nothing's wrong,right?

Well,then came the main part.Jit spoke about hiding our light.He asked how we hid our light in our daily life.Ok..great.I must say I havent been a really strong light among my friends or should I say,I hardly shine.Many a times I do things my other friends do and even uses words I know I so should not use.It's pretty hard to kick off old habits but I am trying..I hope.

Then,came the highlight of the day.While on the way back,Jean asked why the guys are treating a certain guy in the class pretty bad.The guys included me.And yea..I do not deny I personally do not prefer that certain some1.But then I asked myself,what exactly are the reasons?I can say I pretty much found no reasons.I try thinking of his "style" or characteristic and shove the blame to that.Then again,am I really that perfect myself?I don't think I did a right thing in terms of that.

Am I hiding my light?Someone once told me off,saying that the way I act in school will be a hindrance for many to come closer to God.I don't totally disagree with that.I not only hold grudges or blow up out of the blue,I somehow do discriminate others and lack of courage in terms of standing up.The pressure of being look at in a weird way is pretty hard to accept.Jit constantly reminded us of Uncle Jordan,who is being respected by many but when he was standing up for what he believed in,people mock him back then.So,should I really be so afraid to be different?

I am sorry for many things I have done.My classmates and friends..a sincere apology to all of you.I hope to learn to shine stronger and not bring darkness upon people around me....

True Friend Test

Due to the rising popularity of true fren test..i have decided to do 1..and it's all the way down there at the bottom of my blog..so do feel free to try it out and see how well you know me..

One Step At A Time...

It has been long since I last posted something.It has been pretty long since I on9 too.I went on a pc fast for 10 days!Amzing?No?Truth is my pc broke down lar.Hehe.My finals is over!Well,muet is on Mon,so still considered over.YAHOO!!!It has been a really tough and tiring week.So here I am to de-stress..

This time of the year is called the Exam Period as every students need to take their finals.When there's exams,there's always results speaking of which students fear even more compare to studying for their finals.There will be people jumping up and down,really excited over their good results while some will be sad,seeing what they have scored.Moment of truth is just a week or two from me as I think I will get my results by then.It's pretty agonising when you sort of gave your best but still get a mediocre or so-called "bad" result.Truth is,some even envy how others can get such high marks and began to blame themselves for not studying harder.I do it alot of times too.

Whenever we get our results,some would ask how many wrongs did you get?How much marks did you get?We would most probably answered I had 10 wrongs.I got a C lar.Or even,don't ask!
What I have realised over this period of time is we should always give thanks.Look at it from another point,I got 40 corrects and not 10 wrongs.I got a C instead of failing.Isnt that something to be proud of and to give thanks instead of moaning over the wrongs or failure to get better?
The way many of us asked is pretty wrong too,we should always asked how did you do?or how did you fare?NOT HOW MUCH YOU GET?OR HOW MANY As?

I failed 3 subjects for my 1st test so I do hope I pass all 4 this time around for my finals.I felt that we should always take one step at a time.Not aiming for the As but instead seek for improvement in every exam and giving our best.It's the same with things in life.We dont expect babies to start walking before they even start crawling,do we?So we should always take things one step at a time in life.

Just a piece of my mind.:)

Study Break...

MR President 2006/07Sweet couple?
The Gamemasters
Teacher advisor and President~

The ELS Family

And I thought only college has such a thing called Study Break where you get a week or 2 of holidays for you to prepare for your exams. I am currently enjoying my Raya break a.k.a Study Break as I would be having my finals next week.I so should be studying,no?Anyways,just felt like updating a little since it has been like a week++ since I posted something new. The best day would actually be on Saturday last week as we had the ELS Farewell dinner at Prime City Hotel.
It was just a little gathering with less than 40 people. Well, all in all it was really enjoyable. I had fun playing a prank on some of them.Haha..I hope next year I get a good farewell dinner too..

Story...

Have you ever wondered how you gonna answer if someone comes up to you one day and ask you how has life been?Most of us will answer "I have been fine,thank you".What I am trying to ask here is not the normal daily answer we give but your very own life story.I believe each and everyone of us has one to tell,whether good or bad.Ever wondered who's the author of this story?Most of us most probably will say MYSELF.But,for me,I would say is God.Every little details in our life is already decided by Him when we were created.Little things that happened each and everyday did not happen by chance but it was all in the plan.

In life,we are all expected to taste victory and experience failure.It's all part of life.We fall,we rise,we fall again,we rise again.Life is not like a circle where things just go round and round,instead it's more like a journey,where we can only advance and not retreat.All the road we have taken serve just as memories or lesson in our lifes.Some may be real painful while some may be real sweet but we cant deny that it's still part of our life which we never can deny.So,don't try to run from your past or be ashamed of it.Life isnt about being the best,it's about living the best.

We all tend to worry about what may comes tomorrow.Will I be successful?Will i married the right one?Will I be able to this?Will I be able to that?All these questions keep popping up one after another.Due to these,we all become more defensive,more self-centered and more moody.Why?It's because we are perpetually living to live up to those standards.Standards of the world.All of us worried so much about what may happen in the future that we get so paranoid.What I have learnt is this

Mathew 6:34--Do not worry about tomorrow,for tomorrow will worry about itself.Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I aint saying we should not prepare for the future but at the same time we should not worry so much that we lose our focus in things that are really important like spending time with love ones,attending Yf or church or just chilling with friends.We should always do our best and whatever comes by,we will leave it to God.Surrender and ready to do His will was something I learnt through my own life recently and I can tell you..it's not easy to say that you will accept what may come..

The next time,when your grandchildren asked you if you have done this or have you done that when you were their age,would you say YES or would you say GRANDPA HAD BETTER THINGS TO DO LIKE STUDYING?The metaphor here is whether you will be able to say you have live life to the fullest or not.I would not say I could be the 1st type,but I certainly will not be the latter.:)I chose to commit my life to God and let Him be the author of my life story.What about you?

o re wa hitori ja nai..

Hm..October is here.I can seem to see the holiday smiling broadly at me.At the same time,I see the fearful exams smiling teasingly at me for I aint prepared for it at all.10 months have passed since I shouted Happy New Year on the ground of Kluang Country Club.So much have happened and so much have changed throughout this period of time.The one question that stands..Am I still me?Throughout this 10 months I have continously asked myself this question for there are times I doubt the things I did and regret over certain decisions I made or word that I have said.I have made a number of people worried about me and I apologised for that(If you guys are reading this).Arigato..

The title of my post is actually Japanese,meaning I AM NOT ALONE.I have fallen numerous of times and whenever I do fall,there always seems to be someone there to help me up.God is good and has been guiding me all this time,teaching me and always sending the right people at the right time to tell me certain things.I guess I have grown a lot but I still am struggling with the fact that I always end up hurting people around me,in terms of words and actions.For that,I just wanna say sorry to those whom I may have hurt with my words or actions.I figure out I need to stop being a child.I may have said those words tonnes and tonnes of times,but I guess this is for real.Haha.I am really grateful for friends that are always by my side,whether good or bad times.

I am still looking for answers to many things and questions in my life and I believe I will figure all these out,sooner or later..So,for now..time to get the engine started for the final year exam!
I guess a certain quote is driving me on too..

"What's wrong with falling?When you raise your head,you can see the sky stretches limitlessly and smile at you."

So I guess failing in life is a process all of us need to go through.I just want to say here that things are never easy but hey,we never know what lies ahead unless we take a step further.
So,gambatte yo every1 for we are not alone in this world and we never will be...

40th post..

Hm..seems to me I have been missing from the blogging world for quite a period of time.So here I am with my 40th post in my blog!Let's celebrate!!!!!!!Well,basically nothing much have happened throughtout this 2 weeks.Things were pretty much in equilibrium and there is no extreme values when it comes to having fun.I have only about a month left before my final year exam.Great..I am so EXCITED over it...

Today at CG,Jit spoke about The Mind.It is about how we are influenced and conformed by our enviroment and led to actions in our life.For example,we all tend to go after riches of the world and slogged ourselves out just to get unnecessary things like a new car.Ok..car is necessary but if we work for the sake of owning one so I can be glamourous and show off,we should start asking ourselves if it's worth it.Living a life is to be contented but it seems to me we have all long forgotten what it really means to be contented.Have you ever have a feeling where u feel pointless and empty after you get your hands on something..say a new hp and before you know it,you are already looking at a new model,planning to change your hp.Well,I certainly have those times in my life.

Disappointment arise when we expect something.If things dont go our way,we would feel frustrated and just start blaming tonnes of people,including ourselves.I aint saying that we should not expect something but that we should look at things positively and at the same time with a calm heart(ping chang xin).Keep our finger cross and believe God will provide.If things dont go our way,give thanks for things always happened for a reason.There's always a little lesson here and there we can learn in our life.So,to a friend of mine(you know who you are)..Certain things do not please certain people and you will tend to meet with lotsa such jokers in life..so chill,k?Whatever it is..stand firm and hey,save those tears..water limited lately!:P

So,yea..that pretty sums up what I want to say today..DO NOT BE CONFORM BY THE WORLD BUT BE TRANSFORMED BY THE RENEWAL OF THE MIND.

Slow down your steps and do your best in everything.What matters is not failure but how you view it.:)