Renewed..

3 more weeks to my finals,5 more weeks to finishing year 1 in university. Truth be told, my semester 2 isn't very well, in fact, I am suffering. I gave myself too much excuses, gave in to my laziness and now I am paying the price. I am scared, afraid of how I will fare for finals but I know worrying doesn't help.

On another side of things, I seem to be living in and of this world as contrary to how I should be. I don't remember when was the last time I look forward to going church, look forward to reading His word. All those became like a duty, done out of responsibility, not free-will. I slacked, totally in my life for most of semester 2. But today, I know God has not given up on me. What I read in Numbers showed God's faithfulness and His promise when we are in the right relationship with Him.
The Israelites did not reduce in numbers and was prospering even in the desert! It's just like how I am like right now. Signs are not showing very good prospect for 3 subjects I am taking but I believe God will bring me through. It's time to go back to basic..more of Him and less of me.

No more excuses..fighting mode on! Yes, today I felt renewed..today I felt God once again..XD