Down and Out..

Been feeling abit tired recently,both in terms of physical and mental.Well,I have been waking up at 4 or 5 am in the morning everyday.I think in the not so distant future,I am going to be a China's treasure.Haha.Well,I think I slept too much in the afternoon too.So,yea..kind of leading a twisted lifestyle?Hm,been so caught up with alot of things happening around me lately.I barely passed or should I say..I failed all my subjects in the 1st test..Haha..abit down but not totally sad.:P..

Well,when we are down and out,what would we most probably do?I would curse and scold and do alot more stupid stuffs.How about you?There are so much grudges that I am holding on and sometimes I channel my anger the wrong way.People around me might be the victim when I snapped or maybe even my own hands due to punching the walls in my room.There are a lot of times I am just so frustrated at myself and just been down on mood.Ok,that is so not TZH.But yea,I don't deny I see some changes in myself;both good and bad.There is always 1 weakness of mine that I find it pretty hard to overcome.I speak without thinking how the other party would feel and I would find happiness in teasing or making others sad.Scary,right?

But I have been learning alot throughout this 7 months.Every trials I have come across did not bring me down(OK..I was down) but I think I learnt lots.MOre than I have ever learnt in the past in matter of months.One very important lesson I learnt is to put your head on stuffs it's needed!I think I have some slight problem with concentration.Of course,letting go and just caring for one another a little bit more.I think if I were in the past,I would not bother much about people who needs help.I mean,duh..so many others out there,why do they need me?I'll help if there is a benefit.haha.So,every actions I do is more than meet the eyes.:P

Hm,just thought of sharing a song with you all...

Beautiful Saviour
by Planet Shakers


Jesus, Beautiful Saviour,
God of all Majesty,
Risen king,
Lamb of God,
Holy and righteous,
Blessed redeemer,
Bright morning star
All the heavens shout your praise,
All creation bow to worship You

How wonderful, how beautiful,
Name above every name, exalted high
How wonderful, how beautiful,
Jesus your name, name above every name, Jesus

I will sing forever, Jesus I love you, Jesus I love you

p/s:to those I have hurt due to my words and those I have annoyed,I sincerely apologise.:)

THE NEXT TIME YOU ARE DOWN,THINK OF A LITTLE THING CALLED FAITH.HOLD ONTO GOD AND THINGS WILL TURN AROUND.:)

Insane and Sane...

Recently something broke out in school.I shant move into details about that but that event made me feel like posting out what's on my mind.Have it ever crossed your mind that it's kinda good to be living in your own world,where you dont have to worry so much?I do.Insane some people would call it,others would say it means fantasizing.Who actually has the scale to measure it in the 1st place?Being in our so-called normal state isnt a very good thing after all..Insanity and sanity is just separated by a thin line.We,tend to fight with ourselves,contradict with one another and felt lost tonnes of times.So,which is actually better?

I have learnt of a little thing called faith.Through trials and tribulations we can try to vent our anger and disappointment in a bad way,but trust me..that will made you feel so much worse.Not any better.Learning how to let go and hang onto the hope that God have provided us with comes in very handy at such times.When you are weak,HE is strong.

Something one of my teachers said today struck me hard too.In times of difficulties,how many of us can claim ourselves as friends to those who need us?Sometimes a little bit of care can change so much.I am guiilty of running away when problems arise and discriminating people.But I shall not do it anymore for we are all the same in God's eyes.Some people are strong enough to stand up again on his own when he falls.Others need friends.So let us all look into the needs of others and not just let the world revolves around yourself.

p/s:I am not insane..no worries..haha

17th July 2007...

What a day!We,the lower form sixers finished our test today,well with mixed feelings though.Some were happy,most were..ESCTATIC!Haha.NOt because we can scored but we scraped through our 2 days of test and boy,what a relieve!It so happens that today is my kawan lama,MR IVAN WU ZHIA MING"S BIRTHDAY!Happy Birthday dude!18 dy ar!Dont play play..do wrong go jail dy!:P

So,the class organized a "field trip" to the famous K PARADE.So about 15 of us gathered there and went bowling.We spent about an hour or so there and cleaning up the "longkang" for the bowling centre.Hehe..Then,Song An and the gangs went to get stuffs organized at KFC while jean,me,peikee and lee ming are supposed to bring Ivan around to buy some time.So off we went to CHHS to watch some boys in action!:P

Then,Song An called..the moment the match was getting excited!Ish..So we travelled back to KFC,with Ivan's eyes wrapped around by a piece of towel!When we arrived at KFC,everyone was looking at us in a VERY WEIRD WAY..I wished I could post pictures but yea..we'll save that for some other day..hehe..So we sang him a birthday song and MAKAN!Haha..That sums up today!It was one of the most exciting birthday celebrated this year!

p/s:I realise I am going broke..donations anyone?

Changes

I like changes in life.I like to be in new enviroment,knowing people,doing things I never do before.I enjoy changes as a matter of fact.But for once in my life,I just wish that there would not be so many changes.Do you?2007 has been really weird for me.I think I am beginning to pay attention to things that's happening to me and happening around me.I just wish that all the changes that occured had not happened.Man,7 months in...felt like 7 years!

p/s:friday the 13th today..bad luck anybody?

Regrets..

Have you ever come across a time in your life where you start questioning yourself if it's worth doing certain things?Say..will I regret I do so and so..or does it do me any good?I bet every1 out ther does..So,is it ok to regret and dwell over certain decisions or actions we took and made?
Just thought of that all of a sudden..hehe..wat you think?Leave a room to ponder..the next time you wanna regret over something..think twice..OK..mayb THRICE if you are SLOW..:P..

true sacrifice expect no return..agree anybody?hm....

HOLA!

Hey everyone!TZH is glad to announce that TZH IS BACK!!!

Some of you might have been taken aback by my past 2 posts..sorry ya!I guess I was wondering too much..living in my own dream..HAHA!Well,I felt all the burdens off me now..so CHILL!!

Continueto visit here ya!AND POST SMTG..:P..Been quite here..:)

Actions speak louder than words

"Praise God when we win, praise God when we lose"

The phrase we all are being taught and the way we ought to act in our lifes.But just how many of us can actually do that?I am not trying to point my finger at anyone or whatsoever.So,chill!It's just that it's always easier to say such words than doing it when we face with some problems.I guess when we encounter problems and we are finding it really hard to overcome it,we need to seek the strength from the Lord and share with some1.I am learning how to do that right now..

The 1st week of july hasnt been real good to me..What's next?

I dont know..I really dont..

For now..tzh is out...

Struggles..

I had a bad day on Friday.To begin with,I was out with friends till 3 am the day before watching Transformers so I got a little nagging from my dad.Then come the leo agm after school.Well,I went for it with some friends,expecting to at least land myself some small post to fulfil the koko criteria.Turns did not turned out the way I expected.I got boycotted by some juniors who I barely know.Then,form sixers from other schools just went on to claim post after post.I was really feeling moody as I was nominated yet nobody voted.It's kinda like making me such a fool in front of at least 50 ppl.I was really angry and down the moment I know I was being played a fool.But then again,I kept telling myself..mayb this isnt the club for you.I could have just slammed the door and walked out of the classroom.But i didn't.I even went on to crack a few jokes and just went on with it.I realise that such trials and disappointments can sometimes meant to be test for me.I chose to forgive those who treated me like some kind of clown and just try not to think too much about it.After all,when you are cursed,you bless.I do believe that God allows things to happen around us for a good reason.But to accept such event is kind of hard.I learnt to surrender all my struggles to God,and accept what may come.It's hard..but yea..I am learning...

Moving on,Transformers is a movie really worth watching!I stayed out with ryan and weishin till 3 am for the sake of the movie and we did not regret a single bit.HAHA..People,WATCH IT!!!