Time to get back to work. After two weeks of adrenalin rush for the festive season, everything is finally falling back into place. Not much reasons for me to go MIA from Skudai anymore. Studies for sem 2 has kicked in and picking up the pace. However, 2 of my lecturers said they want to go for a vacation so I prolly will have less lectures next week! What a start to semester 2. On the bright side of things, I guess it's time to finally settle down in Skudai. The next time you people see me around in KLuang, it's probably during the Chinese New Year break.
This whole week has somewhat been a little messy but the puzzle finally is pieced together this afternoon after a short tea session with Yosh. The whole Christmas season like I have said previously just feel so weird. One thing's for sure, it's back to the beginning of what I set out to do upon leaving for uni. What have I accomplished? Not much I guess. I need to work harder in order to open more windows to see more things from Him I supposed. Fuh. It ain't gonna be a simple journey but I definitely hope I am ready. Servanthood, spiritual growth, civil engineering studies, here I come!
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
Merry Christmas Everyone!
The title says it all, it's Christmas again. The long awaited festival at the end of each year is finally here once again. After a month's long of decorations and sales, the day came and soon will be gone. Christmas this year for me has been very different in many aspects. But before I go further, let me first wished all you readers Merry Xmas and Blessed New Year!
This is the first Christmas that I am not on holidays. Previously, I am either on graduation break or school holidays break during Christmas but UTM started class early this semester thus I traveled back and forth to join the events here in Kluang. First up, I came back last Thursday to join a I Love Kluang Project to give out uniforms to a community and then a Christmas Cheer event in Kluang Mall on Sunday. Went back to Uni and came back on Wednesday to make it just in time for Carolling last night. The highlight of the whole Christmas season, The 1 Joy 1 Kluang event at Taman Tasek. It's a joint collaboration between churches in Kluang to celebrate and countdown to Christmas together. This event and carolling on the 23rd, when it is usually on the eve made Christmas special for me this year too.
Oh well, I took on the job to be a clown again and hopefully did my share of job to entertain the crowd there. It was a massive events with lots of performances and a whole loads of people. Kluang seems so Christmassy last night! Haha. These 2 weeks have made me realised that there's still so much for me to learn, so much for me to do before I embark on a new journey to start acting like a young adult. Of course I should do things a young adult will do however that I supposed should come in stages so I am gonna enjoy serving the Lord and remembering Him in the days of my youth above all else!
I have always embraced the belief that Christmas is a time to share a smile and spread the joy! So let's all be jolly and celebrate! Once again, a blessed Christmas all!
P/S : The writer welcomes presents from everyone of you, in fact you all should give as a sign of blessings unto the writer, no? :P
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Royals 09
Royals or better known as Royal Intervarsity Debating Championship was held in Universiti Malaya this year. I took part in the senior category of the tournament by chance and had a fun time in KL. It was supposed to be a debating tournament but somehow turned out to be a trip where the UTM team travel around and eat and had fun. As a beginner, I guessed I did pretty decent partnering 2 3rd year seniors. We had 2 wins out of a possible 5. We did not make it to the quarter finals though, making each of us rather disappointed. It was an intriguing time debating and seeing others' point of views and getting adjudication on how I can be a better debater. The tournament was good with some not so good arrangements by UM but well, let's not criticize the number 1 uni in Malaysia. It was like a food trip too, ate Ipoh Taugeh Chicken at Jalan Gasing, mamak at Murni in SS2, Jalan Alor's frog porridge, Alexis Bar's expensive cake, Sake Sushi and Shah Alam's char siew. It was really fun hanging out with those seniors of mine. Too bad I did not make too many new friends. Haha. Well, pictures on the trip will be up on fb! so do visit my page! XD
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Survey Camp
And so I went back to UTM on 15th evening, slept in my friend's room and headed for registration for the survey camp the next morning. Basically survey camp is where we put what we learnt in engineering surveying to practice and our destination, Kuala Linggi, Malacca where the project requires us to come up with a plan to widen the existing road. It was a bittersweet 9 days in Malacca. One thing's for sure, friendship was built and bonds become stronger. I really love and am proud being a UTM-er with you all!
The journey started on 16th morning and we reached there about late afternoon. Briefing was given the night and field work kicked off the next morning. We were behind schedule due to lack of practice and also the weather. We admit we could and should have been more efficient as we know weather during end of the year is never that good. It was scorching out at times and pouring like there's no tomorrow at other. Well, we somehow managed to complete our projects and submitted everything on the final day. I guess no one can forget about all the "lectures" we got and the challenges to think out of the box. My teammates were great too. Mazen, an international student totally worked his butt off for the team and I salute him for that! Haha! Amira, Faisal, Hazwani and Faer, you guys rock! Glad to be in a team! =)
Foodwise, I have no complaints lar although you would have wished for better food. Facing the Malacca Straits everyday is quite an experience. The sunrise, sunset and the breeze along the storm. It really does show how amazing the creation of God is.
For more pictures, do visit my facebook to view them there. To all, thanks for making this survey camp memorable.
Next up, KL here I come XD
The journey started on 16th morning and we reached there about late afternoon. Briefing was given the night and field work kicked off the next morning. We were behind schedule due to lack of practice and also the weather. We admit we could and should have been more efficient as we know weather during end of the year is never that good. It was scorching out at times and pouring like there's no tomorrow at other. Well, we somehow managed to complete our projects and submitted everything on the final day. I guess no one can forget about all the "lectures" we got and the challenges to think out of the box. My teammates were great too. Mazen, an international student totally worked his butt off for the team and I salute him for that! Haha! Amira, Faisal, Hazwani and Faer, you guys rock! Glad to be in a team! =)
Foodwise, I have no complaints lar although you would have wished for better food. Facing the Malacca Straits everyday is quite an experience. The sunrise, sunset and the breeze along the storm. It really does show how amazing the creation of God is.
For more pictures, do visit my facebook to view them there. To all, thanks for making this survey camp memorable.
Next up, KL here I come XD
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
This is Me?
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
You guys do the verdict. Haha! I played it for fun upon seeing it on a friend's blog.
All comments are most welcome and I do wanna hear from you all readers of my blog!
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
You guys do the verdict. Haha! I played it for fun upon seeing it on a friend's blog.
All comments are most welcome and I do wanna hear from you all readers of my blog!
Friday, October 30, 2009
Once Again..
Just came back from CG. Felt recharged as it has been long since I really let go of everything. Ever since entering uni, attending church and cg and youth has been like a chore more than fun. It's like I am there for the sake of fulfilling a duty. Sometimes, I even go MIA. I have been dry and I wont be shy to admit it. Somehow I am just seeking to be replugged into that power supply, God but I kept using my own strength thus effort proves to be vain.
But today, things took change. I enjoy people's presence but I was reminded of God's presence. Spending some time alone with the Almighty as Moses always do when he withdraw to his tent outside the main camp. I lacked that quality time with God and constantly think I can do better, but ended up being disappointed. I put in very little effort yet I expect to sow a good results. However, God's grace has definitely been good that I am still hanging in there for good results. It may not be the best but sometimes it certainly isnt what I deserve. Haha. I know I need the presence of others to recharge me and I know I need Him more to supply me with energy. Once again, I am on the move. I will do my best, be grateful and rock on!
But today, things took change. I enjoy people's presence but I was reminded of God's presence. Spending some time alone with the Almighty as Moses always do when he withdraw to his tent outside the main camp. I lacked that quality time with God and constantly think I can do better, but ended up being disappointed. I put in very little effort yet I expect to sow a good results. However, God's grace has definitely been good that I am still hanging in there for good results. It may not be the best but sometimes it certainly isnt what I deserve. Haha. I know I need the presence of others to recharge me and I know I need Him more to supply me with energy. Once again, I am on the move. I will do my best, be grateful and rock on!
Dreamy Me..
Finished 3 papers for my finals so far. Don't think I did very well for my survey earlier this morning. It's really tiring to see people soar higher than you sometimes or maybe I am just expecting a little too much with very little effort. Haha. I really don't know what's gonna happen but guess I just have to work harder. People, pray for me ya! 2 more papers. I have seen beyond the results after STPM, or so I thought. I am still putting too much emphasis on being top of the bunch once again. Aih~ Time to shed off this sort of thinking and just work more, talk less I guess. Dreamy me! Out!
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Time Warp
Bravo to all PMR students for completing the first public exam in secondary school. Next up is SPM and for some, probably STPM. Hm, 5 years back, I took my PMR. Forward to 2 years later, came SPM. And fast forward another 2 years, I finished STPM. Now, I am finishing my 1st semester in university. 1 down, 7 more to go. I havent been updating much since entering Uni, firstly because the line sometimes sucks and secondly, I seem to lost the touch for blogging. But somehow, a feeling overwhelm me today to try and blog a long long post. Hehe. So bear with me if you are reading this.
Apparently the older you grow, the faster you feel time passes by. In a blink of an eye, I am left with 7 semesters to go, like what I have just said. Next week will be a study week for me with 3 weeks of final examinations after that. I thank God for placing me here in Skudai. It was really great to have a church and its members to take care of my growth, both spiritually and emotionally. Still looking around to see how I can serve better, so for Hebronites, thank you. I know I am always MIA but I still love you all! Haha.
Currently, I am reading a book called A Month To Live, talking about how you should spend your life when you have a month left. Frankly, living everyday as if it's your last, definitely is much more fruitful. You waste less one second, build one more relationship and bless and extra soul if you really go all out to love. I am always feeling slackish and tired but I know if I am plugged into the POWER source of all, I will be doing fine. I still fall now and then but God never fails to pick me up. Thank God for a really cool bunch of coursemates too, not forgetting the really great seniors that I have, from different faculties. Currently I am involved in AIESEC, debating club and also IK in uni. Uni life really is sweet, however there is still a lazy bug in me that needs some sorting out. So please support me with all your prayers=)
As for my status, well, I am still single and seeking. Haha. I know, Joanne will be so fired up to see this. I just said I am seeking, not taking actions. Singlehood is fun at the same time, a bit challenging. Seeing your friends pairing up as time pass by, is kind of a weird feeling. Haha. Oh well, like every wise old man will say YOUR TIME WILL COME so I can just wait? haha.
I am definitely feeling time is really flying. From joining YMI at the start of the year till now, finishing 2009. It's amazing how much I have learned in a year. It's also amazing how I am slacking off in faith within 2-3 months. Transition from teens to young adult isnt all about fun. It's about growing up, responsibility. I see a lot of changes ever since I left Kluang, for better or worse. So for Kluangites who are struggling, I am here supporting you all! Remember, ACCEPTANCE not TOLERANCE is the key to problem-less, not problemless..meaning less prob life. Just like how our Father in Heaven accepts our shortcomings. Argh.. I guess I have nagged long enough
Finally, STPM and SPM candidates, all the best! Remember, it isn't just about As. It's about giving your best. Regardless of what you got, you know that is all you gave, so no regrets. I fell from strings of As to no A in STPM. It's truly by His grace I am where I am, doing what I want. So have faith, give thanks and rock the school! For uni students, all the best for finals and hope to see you all real soon during sem break. I definitely miss you people. You know who you are! :P
Apparently the older you grow, the faster you feel time passes by. In a blink of an eye, I am left with 7 semesters to go, like what I have just said. Next week will be a study week for me with 3 weeks of final examinations after that. I thank God for placing me here in Skudai. It was really great to have a church and its members to take care of my growth, both spiritually and emotionally. Still looking around to see how I can serve better, so for Hebronites, thank you. I know I am always MIA but I still love you all! Haha.
Currently, I am reading a book called A Month To Live, talking about how you should spend your life when you have a month left. Frankly, living everyday as if it's your last, definitely is much more fruitful. You waste less one second, build one more relationship and bless and extra soul if you really go all out to love. I am always feeling slackish and tired but I know if I am plugged into the POWER source of all, I will be doing fine. I still fall now and then but God never fails to pick me up. Thank God for a really cool bunch of coursemates too, not forgetting the really great seniors that I have, from different faculties. Currently I am involved in AIESEC, debating club and also IK in uni. Uni life really is sweet, however there is still a lazy bug in me that needs some sorting out. So please support me with all your prayers=)
As for my status, well, I am still single and seeking. Haha. I know, Joanne will be so fired up to see this. I just said I am seeking, not taking actions. Singlehood is fun at the same time, a bit challenging. Seeing your friends pairing up as time pass by, is kind of a weird feeling. Haha. Oh well, like every wise old man will say YOUR TIME WILL COME so I can just wait? haha.
I am definitely feeling time is really flying. From joining YMI at the start of the year till now, finishing 2009. It's amazing how much I have learned in a year. It's also amazing how I am slacking off in faith within 2-3 months. Transition from teens to young adult isnt all about fun. It's about growing up, responsibility. I see a lot of changes ever since I left Kluang, for better or worse. So for Kluangites who are struggling, I am here supporting you all! Remember, ACCEPTANCE not TOLERANCE is the key to problem-less, not problemless..meaning less prob life. Just like how our Father in Heaven accepts our shortcomings. Argh.. I guess I have nagged long enough
Finally, STPM and SPM candidates, all the best! Remember, it isn't just about As. It's about giving your best. Regardless of what you got, you know that is all you gave, so no regrets. I fell from strings of As to no A in STPM. It's truly by His grace I am where I am, doing what I want. So have faith, give thanks and rock the school! For uni students, all the best for finals and hope to see you all real soon during sem break. I definitely miss you people. You know who you are! :P
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Recharged!
The Raya holidays has come to an end. A long 11 days break from lectures,tutorials and notes was quite fun. Yours truly have alot to complete but choose to have fun,work later. This theory definitely is not a good one thus people, do not follow! Haha. Well, it was definitely great to catch up once more with so many friends. Everyone is busy with everything and as time passes by, we seldom see each other. It was definitely a great time sleeping at home and eating all the good food too! People say when you are in uni, you slim down. That statement does not apply to me at any point!
Well, will be heading back to UTM tomorrow. Lots of test coming. Fuh!!! At least I had my share of fun and shopping the past week. I went KL to meet up with my sister and donated a little to charity. Had late night yum chas session again. Not forgetting a small gathering at my house. Aw..The sweet things that was such a norm during the 6 months break. I wish everyone here happy schooling once more! And for those travelling, a safe journey back!
Well, will be heading back to UTM tomorrow. Lots of test coming. Fuh!!! At least I had my share of fun and shopping the past week. I went KL to meet up with my sister and donated a little to charity. Had late night yum chas session again. Not forgetting a small gathering at my house. Aw..The sweet things that was such a norm during the 6 months break. I wish everyone here happy schooling once more! And for those travelling, a safe journey back!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Selamat Hari Raya~
A very Selamat Hari Raya to every Malaysians and all my Muslim friends. As we are 1Malaysia, all of us should celebrate on this joyous festival. Hehe. Yours truly is home after 3 weeks. A good improvement from being a PBSM. So, a little update on what I have done so far.
I have had my 2nd calculus test last Friday, hopefully I did okay. Had a steamboat outing with coursemates, that Saturday night was great and I hope I did not screw up the outing. I need to learn to handle my thoughts better and also to be a better friend. Am still learning and growing. Well, Sunday was church service. I know, finally I went to Hebron for Sunday service. The previous Sunday I was in Cyberjaya MMU for a competition. I managed to catch up with Gideon too while I was there. Hehe.
Well, I had a dream the other day that God is saying let MY timing be yours. So I guessed that sort of answer a lot questions that I have been wanting to ask and things I want to do. I think I am just gonna enjoy my time and walk every step as He guide. In the meantime, people, have fun!
I have had my 2nd calculus test last Friday, hopefully I did okay. Had a steamboat outing with coursemates, that Saturday night was great and I hope I did not screw up the outing. I need to learn to handle my thoughts better and also to be a better friend. Am still learning and growing. Well, Sunday was church service. I know, finally I went to Hebron for Sunday service. The previous Sunday I was in Cyberjaya MMU for a competition. I managed to catch up with Gideon too while I was there. Hehe.
Well, I had a dream the other day that God is saying let MY timing be yours. So I guessed that sort of answer a lot questions that I have been wanting to ask and things I want to do. I think I am just gonna enjoy my time and walk every step as He guide. In the meantime, people, have fun!
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Summer Holidays!
Well, studying in Malaysia doesnt exactly let you experience 4 seasons but since it's summer over in the northern hemisphere so I thought of telling what happened throughout the month of August. I had my 1st test in UTM, faring okay for every paper I took. Next test coming in a week's time. Haha!
Well, besides test I have had a lot of fun too hence the title! Firstly, I attended Hebron's Church Camp and it was great. Austin Hill Golf Resort rocks! We played paintball, jacuzzi and some indoor games. It was superbly great with great prices to pay especially paintball. Haha. It was great being able to spend time with Ezra and gang too. Dr Simon Locke, the speaker is still as good as ever with his messages. Pastor Daniel proposed to his long time gf and that definitely is the highlight of the whole camp! Hm, this weekend might be making a trip to Malacca and the next, staying in JB. So technically I havent gone home or wont be going home for quite awhile. Hehe.
Till then, stay tuned!
Well, besides test I have had a lot of fun too hence the title! Firstly, I attended Hebron's Church Camp and it was great. Austin Hill Golf Resort rocks! We played paintball, jacuzzi and some indoor games. It was superbly great with great prices to pay especially paintball. Haha. It was great being able to spend time with Ezra and gang too. Dr Simon Locke, the speaker is still as good as ever with his messages. Pastor Daniel proposed to his long time gf and that definitely is the highlight of the whole camp! Hm, this weekend might be making a trip to Malacca and the next, staying in JB. So technically I havent gone home or wont be going home for quite awhile. Hehe.
Till then, stay tuned!
Saturday, August 22, 2009
No Reason To Fail
Yet another little look into another week of my life. Yes, I know, it's not very interesting nor is it very attractive however, I will still update. Haha. The week has been surrounded by rumours that UTM will be closing due to the influenza A(H1N1) which did not materialise. Lectures went on as usual, with yet another day of surveying in the hot sun. Everyone came back to hostel with laptops they bought last weekend at the pc fair so the study room is now literally a cybercafe at night. Haha.
Moving on to something interesting, I took a taxi to Sri Putri as usual to catch a bus home. On the way, I had a little conversatiob with the uncle. He asked what course am I doing and is it my choice. For the latter, I answered yes and what he said next suddenly just struck me there.
"OHh, macam tu NO REASON TO FAIL lar..." and bla bla bla. What he said is indeed very true. In life, when we chose to do what we love and like and really enjoy doing, there's no reason to fail or rather to hold us back, right? No doubts, setbacks will be there but we will pull through because it's something we enjoy and we made that DECISION which leads me to what I want to say next, THERE IS NO RIGHT OR WRONG DECISION nor is there GOOD OR BAD DECISION but there's only YOUR's OR THEIR's DECISION. People tend to get influence by many factors such as friends, parents and better future in pursuing the course or doing things they want. So to all SPM-ers and STPM-ers or even uni students, go for something you have a passion for. May it be cooking, singing or doing engineering. It's about finding where God wants you to be and what you really want. If doing something doesnt bring peace or enjoyment to you, then think again if that's really worth it. Life's too short to live other people's decision and life for them..>.<
Well, just a little thought from TZH after a long while. For your information, I am enjoying what I am studying so yea..no complains! Hehe!
Moving on to something interesting, I took a taxi to Sri Putri as usual to catch a bus home. On the way, I had a little conversatiob with the uncle. He asked what course am I doing and is it my choice. For the latter, I answered yes and what he said next suddenly just struck me there.
"OHh, macam tu NO REASON TO FAIL lar..." and bla bla bla. What he said is indeed very true. In life, when we chose to do what we love and like and really enjoy doing, there's no reason to fail or rather to hold us back, right? No doubts, setbacks will be there but we will pull through because it's something we enjoy and we made that DECISION which leads me to what I want to say next, THERE IS NO RIGHT OR WRONG DECISION nor is there GOOD OR BAD DECISION but there's only YOUR's OR THEIR's DECISION. People tend to get influence by many factors such as friends, parents and better future in pursuing the course or doing things they want. So to all SPM-ers and STPM-ers or even uni students, go for something you have a passion for. May it be cooking, singing or doing engineering. It's about finding where God wants you to be and what you really want. If doing something doesnt bring peace or enjoyment to you, then think again if that's really worth it. Life's too short to live other people's decision and life for them..>.<
Well, just a little thought from TZH after a long while. For your information, I am enjoying what I am studying so yea..no complains! Hehe!
Friday, July 31, 2009
A Month On..
Yours truly is sick, with a bad sore throat but recovering. My friends were teasing that thanks to me, UTM finally will be closed down but well, I am just fine, not H1N1! A little update on university life. It's been a month since I left for UTM and yes, I do come back every weekend. Studies is getting more interesting, at the same time harder.
Calculus has moved into chapter 2, a little similar to form 6 maths. Test next week so pray for me ya. Gotta work harder as apparently maths is basic for engineering.>.<
Fluid mechanics is fun, especially with my lecturer being the author of the book we used and also creating his own programme for calculating forces. My lecturer is an interesting character and his classes are never dull, with exercises and also his drawings. Haha. Had the 1st quiz too.
Surveying is fun yet tough and pure hardwork. I actually had to redo my levelling practical and thank God, I managed to complete it the 2nd time round. By the way, surveying means literally ukur jalan!
Engineering drawing, one of my most feared for exams. Haha. I can't draw as well as my friends and also need to learn to draw faster and love drawing but well, it's quite fun. I've never drawn so much in my life!
I have two LAN subjects too which I will talk about them next time! So there you have it, what I've been doing in UTM. I am trying to get myself involve in more out of class activity too. So, stay tuned!
Calculus has moved into chapter 2, a little similar to form 6 maths. Test next week so pray for me ya. Gotta work harder as apparently maths is basic for engineering.>.<
Fluid mechanics is fun, especially with my lecturer being the author of the book we used and also creating his own programme for calculating forces. My lecturer is an interesting character and his classes are never dull, with exercises and also his drawings. Haha. Had the 1st quiz too.
Surveying is fun yet tough and pure hardwork. I actually had to redo my levelling practical and thank God, I managed to complete it the 2nd time round. By the way, surveying means literally ukur jalan!
Engineering drawing, one of my most feared for exams. Haha. I can't draw as well as my friends and also need to learn to draw faster and love drawing but well, it's quite fun. I've never drawn so much in my life!
I have two LAN subjects too which I will talk about them next time! So there you have it, what I've been doing in UTM. I am trying to get myself involve in more out of class activity too. So, stay tuned!
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Journey Begins
Hi peeps, for most Kluangites,I know you guys have seen me for 2 straight weeks but nonetheless,I havent really gotten the chance to catch up with you people so here's a little update. I have started life in UTM,which I still wake up every morning with much disbelief that I am an undergraduate now. Haha. UTM is fantastic with its facilities but the hostel is a little old, and the WIFI, disappointing but well, I am learning to appreciate things. I have settled in well and bonded with quite a number of people,including seniors. However, I have no chinese gals in my class so yeah, I guess God is telling me to study hard for the next 4 years! >.<
Lectures have begun and so far so good. I hope it stays this way. Moving into gear 1 and gonna get into gear 2 soon I believe. With many activities and more heavy lectures, life will soon be hectic. So Kluangites, I assure you. You wont see me that often! I guess this is a good thing for you all? haha. Anyways, will update soon with more pictures and on lessons!
Lectures have begun and so far so good. I hope it stays this way. Moving into gear 1 and gonna get into gear 2 soon I believe. With many activities and more heavy lectures, life will soon be hectic. So Kluangites, I assure you. You wont see me that often! I guess this is a good thing for you all? haha. Anyways, will update soon with more pictures and on lessons!
Friday, June 26, 2009
Going Off...
Tomorrow marks a whole new journey for yours truly. I think the whole I AM LEAVING thingy is beginning to hit me. As I packed, I was feeling kind of weird. For real, I am leaving Kluang. For those who don't know, yours truly is heading to Universiti Teknologi Malaysia in Skudai for his undergraduate studies. And yes, I will be going there tomorrow. It has been a geart 18 and a half years in Kluang. Nonetheless, every friendship I have made, every tears I have wept, every laugh I have laughed. It was great, and to leave, is really not easy!
So, here I am to bid farewell to the Kluang peeps as I wont be seeing you guys in YF or church or other events. Take care, people. And like every Terminator movie, I WILL BE BACK! Do keep me in prayers as I go through my uni life. Take care and see you all soon!
Sunday, June 21, 2009
5 Years..Part II
Remember I posted something regarding what my secondary school friends and I will be 5 years down the road? Well, everything is sure for now, at least as of degree level. Haha!
So here it goes..
Lim Zheng Wei - Metropolitan College ( Finance )
Ivan Wu Zhia Ming - Universiti Malaya ( Physics )
Lai Yu Kang - Nanyang Technological University ( Maths )
Tan Zhi Howe - Universiti Teknologi Malaysia ( Civil Engineering )
Sin Wei Ching - Nanyang Polytechnic ( Accounting )
Ho May Yun - Universiti Teknologi Petronas ( Chemical Engineering )
Ng Ling Fong - Universiti Malaysia Sabah ( Medicine )
Chow Kah Hung - Cal Poly Pomona ( Biotech)
Ong Li Teng - University of Arizona ( Molecular and Cellular Biology )
Ng Wei Wei - Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia ( Medicine )
Lee Mei Kee - Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia ( Dietician )
Hoo Jia Yan - Cal Poly Pomona ( Biotech)
Aaron Wong - Institut Perguruan in Kedah ( TESL )
Lim Zhi Guang - Melbourne University ( Civil Engineering )
Wong Sieow Phey - Universiti Malaya ( Music )
Tan Ing Hau - Monash University ( Economics )
Ong Yok Soon - Inti College Subang Jaya ( IT )
Ma Jih Jing - Universiti Malaysia Sarawak ( Finance )
Soh Yew Jin - KDU College ( IT )
Lee Tian Woon - Inti University College ( IT )
Tew Wan Xin - Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts ( smtg related to arts )
So here it goes..
Lim Zheng Wei - Metropolitan College ( Finance )
Ivan Wu Zhia Ming - Universiti Malaya ( Physics )
Lai Yu Kang - Nanyang Technological University ( Maths )
Tan Zhi Howe - Universiti Teknologi Malaysia ( Civil Engineering )
Sin Wei Ching - Nanyang Polytechnic ( Accounting )
Ho May Yun - Universiti Teknologi Petronas ( Chemical Engineering )
Ng Ling Fong - Universiti Malaysia Sabah ( Medicine )
Chow Kah Hung - Cal Poly Pomona ( Biotech)
Ong Li Teng - University of Arizona ( Molecular and Cellular Biology )
Ng Wei Wei - Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia ( Medicine )
Lee Mei Kee - Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia ( Dietician )
Hoo Jia Yan - Cal Poly Pomona ( Biotech)
Aaron Wong - Institut Perguruan in Kedah ( TESL )
Lim Zhi Guang - Melbourne University ( Civil Engineering )
Wong Sieow Phey - Universiti Malaya ( Music )
Tan Ing Hau - Monash University ( Economics )
Ong Yok Soon - Inti College Subang Jaya ( IT )
Ma Jih Jing - Universiti Malaysia Sarawak ( Finance )
Soh Yew Jin - KDU College ( IT )
Lee Tian Woon - Inti University College ( IT )
Tew Wan Xin - Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts ( smtg related to arts )
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Thank You!
God is indeed great. All glory to Him and Him alone. I got admission into Universiti Teknologi Malaysia in Skudai to pursue a degree in civil engineering, my first choice course! I am really happy and thankful for my results wasnt the best of them all yet I made it into one of the more established university in Malaysia. Surely, it is by His grace. So, here I am want to thank all of you for your prayers, words of encouragement and of course, your company!
For all my friends, let's work hard and have fun in uni!
For all my friends, let's work hard and have fun in uni!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow..
After almost 3 months of killing millions of brain cells, the people from University Placement Unit can finally take a break from their duty comes tomorrow. Tomorrow marks the entry into a new stage of life. 3 or 4 more years and we will no longer be called students. Tens of thousands of people eagerly waiting for the verdict. It will be released at 11 am on the 19th of June 2009.
I am surprisingly calm yet super worried at the same time. Haha. How contradicting. Yet another phobia to face and overcome. But, I am ready, for better or worse. I will still give You praise and I wish every applicants out there best of luck. Whatever the result is, I will look at my form 6 life this way, I saved my parents 30K and I went through a good foundation programme. >.<
Let what people say, politics or not, justice is in Him. So have faith, will work! Good luck people!
I am surprisingly calm yet super worried at the same time. Haha. How contradicting. Yet another phobia to face and overcome. But, I am ready, for better or worse. I will still give You praise and I wish every applicants out there best of luck. Whatever the result is, I will look at my form 6 life this way, I saved my parents 30K and I went through a good foundation programme. >.<
Let what people say, politics or not, justice is in Him. So have faith, will work! Good luck people!
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Fast Wait Pray ( FWP )
That is the name of our "camp" held in Seremban from Sunday till today's afternoon. To give a little idea and background of what this is all about, it's held at Glory Place in Mantin, Seremban where fpr 3 days, we did exactly the three things. We FAST from food, WAIT upon the Lord and PRAY like we have never pray before. It was indeed a good time of really strengthening my faith. There were a total of 49 people joining this year around.
To begin with, I doubted if I am actually ready for this. It's true that I do struggle in my prayer life and I do get distracted or lost while prayer is going on. However, I know that is no excuse for me not to squeeze every ounce of me to pray and so I did. I decided to do a few things which I have never done before in FWP. I also learnt the true meaning of FASTING.
From the camp, as how Ezra has written, we were all super hypocrites, to sum it simply and we are too driven by WORKS, not FAITH nor Him. We think we are doing good by doing a lot spiritual activity but God struck us all. With the simple thing, condition of our hearts. If we do not fix that, it's like we are a leaking pail, whatever is poured in, comes back out. God showed us fire too in visions received by some others which they believed we need to grasp this fire and keeps it burning as we have dropped the fire before. Everyone started to do things from scratch again, literally redefining the meaning of living for Him, knowing Him and doing His will.
I don't dare to say I have moved a large step in my walk with God but definitely, I know there's more to go with, the journey has just started and I, need to deal with my heart...
Are you ready for this exciting journey?
To begin with, I doubted if I am actually ready for this. It's true that I do struggle in my prayer life and I do get distracted or lost while prayer is going on. However, I know that is no excuse for me not to squeeze every ounce of me to pray and so I did. I decided to do a few things which I have never done before in FWP. I also learnt the true meaning of FASTING.
From the camp, as how Ezra has written, we were all super hypocrites, to sum it simply and we are too driven by WORKS, not FAITH nor Him. We think we are doing good by doing a lot spiritual activity but God struck us all. With the simple thing, condition of our hearts. If we do not fix that, it's like we are a leaking pail, whatever is poured in, comes back out. God showed us fire too in visions received by some others which they believed we need to grasp this fire and keeps it burning as we have dropped the fire before. Everyone started to do things from scratch again, literally redefining the meaning of living for Him, knowing Him and doing His will.
I don't dare to say I have moved a large step in my walk with God but definitely, I know there's more to go with, the journey has just started and I, need to deal with my heart...
Are you ready for this exciting journey?
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Week in,Week out..
22 weeks have passed in the year 2009 and soon, the 23rd week will end too. Sitting in front of the computer with nothing much in the head, it's really hard to think of what to blog. I shall update you readers a little about my week 22 and week 23. If something philosophical do pop up while I am writing, probably you will read them too.
I just came back from church camp and it was my first time attending church camp. It was different from all the previous camps I went to, probably because the other camps consist of mostly youths while this one is more family oriented. There's quite a few lessons learnt but what I would like to highlight is probably the part where the speaker spoke about looking at the bigger picture. I have always looked at other people's flaw and trying to think as bad as possible of them to make myself look and feel superior but yet at the end, everything went the other way. I was so focus on them, when I should look more onto myself. To try my best to preserve unity too is important. I piss people off easily. >.< And of course, not forgetting God's promises which I am hoping my deepest desire now would be fulfilled. However, may Thy will be done.
Next up, was of course the long awaited MYPG. Me going for MYPG was pretty much a surprise decision as I did not in the very 1st place wanted to go. But I made up my mind to go up north and definitely this trip paid off, whether in terms of just meeting again with friends or seeking Him.
I would be leaving for FWP, another event tomorrow and will be back by Tuesday. So till then, stay tune folks. I don't know what is to come but I am awaiting with both hopes and excitement!
I just came back from church camp and it was my first time attending church camp. It was different from all the previous camps I went to, probably because the other camps consist of mostly youths while this one is more family oriented. There's quite a few lessons learnt but what I would like to highlight is probably the part where the speaker spoke about looking at the bigger picture. I have always looked at other people's flaw and trying to think as bad as possible of them to make myself look and feel superior but yet at the end, everything went the other way. I was so focus on them, when I should look more onto myself. To try my best to preserve unity too is important. I piss people off easily. >.< And of course, not forgetting God's promises which I am hoping my deepest desire now would be fulfilled. However, may Thy will be done.
Next up, was of course the long awaited MYPG. Me going for MYPG was pretty much a surprise decision as I did not in the very 1st place wanted to go. But I made up my mind to go up north and definitely this trip paid off, whether in terms of just meeting again with friends or seeking Him.
I would be leaving for FWP, another event tomorrow and will be back by Tuesday. So till then, stay tune folks. I don't know what is to come but I am awaiting with both hopes and excitement!
Friday, May 29, 2009
What The Cow..
As expected,I did not get into USM as well. Apparently, all the top institutions seem elusive to me with my results. Sure, I have more than enough reasons to give thanks. However, the human's regrets always stick around with us, especially me. This is the first time in life when I experience constant rejection, one after another. A blow to the face, then the chest and everywhere else that is vulnerable. I am disliking the feeling of waiting, not knowing what will come out of it. I am starting to get abit pissed with myself. Why did I, a guy who knew what exactly he needed and a lot more other stuffs, fooled around with life, and ended up stuck in the middle of nowhere. I am gonna hang on for a little while more, I don't know how much is left of me, but definitely not much. I want to do Your will..
TZH out..hoping for one miracle in life..
TZH out..hoping for one miracle in life..
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Week 21
It's approximately one more month before I leave for university. The results are still pending while some friends already made up their mind about where they are going to be, at least for the next 3 to 4 years. This week has been yet another packed week with 2 trips, 1 to Malacca and travelling to JB tomorrow. The Malacca trip was to bring Victor around and hang out with Gideon before he leaves for MMU. It was nice catching up on the old times and seeing your reactions to those events! >.<
I will be travelling down to JB with Paulus to visit the Hebronites. Trying to munch out as much beneficial moments as possible from my holidays. I think my engine is definitely oil-less. Needs a lot of power to start it up again. Aih~ Pollution is already bad nowadays! >.< On lighter note, I just watched Angels and Demons. It's not bad but I definitely preferred The Da Vinci Code more. Just so not to spoil it for those who havent watch, I wont go into detail about the movie.
I will be watching Night At The Museum 2 this coming Sunday. Dumb Dumbs, anyone want Gum Gum?:P
I will be travelling down to JB with Paulus to visit the Hebronites. Trying to munch out as much beneficial moments as possible from my holidays. I think my engine is definitely oil-less. Needs a lot of power to start it up again. Aih~ Pollution is already bad nowadays! >.< On lighter note, I just watched Angels and Demons. It's not bad but I definitely preferred The Da Vinci Code more. Just so not to spoil it for those who havent watch, I wont go into detail about the movie.
I will be watching Night At The Museum 2 this coming Sunday. Dumb Dumbs, anyone want Gum Gum?:P
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Mixed Fortunes
A thoroughly active week along,with 5 days of exercise. I hope Mr Fats is on his way out of my body with all these. Haha. It's been a week of mixed fortunes, like I have stated. I found out I got rejected by NUS, finally. After weeks of agonising, wondering if it's a ray of hope or just a pure illusion, the answer is out. You guessed it! It was the latter. I will appeal anyway, since it's free. Hehe.
On the bright side of things, I got accepted by UNITEN to study Civil Engineering. I am still waiting for the local U's results. A little worried cause I put NO when they asked if I am willing to accept other courses. But, nothing can be done, right? Learning faith, waiting and trusting Him. Can't help but to always think of the gains and losses throughout my 2 years stay after form 5. I know, I am emo! >.< Well, I have come to a point of trying to look at things from a different perspective.
Matthew 6 : 33 has been some sort of reminder for me to seek Him first and a promise that the rest will be added unto me. Perhaps I am asking too much of Him and seek Him for what He can do, not who He is. Changing that! >.< I want to learn to be like Job, and not the Israelites. To continue to believe and worship Him even when things look tough. 2009, what will be written of me at the end of this year?
On the bright side of things, I got accepted by UNITEN to study Civil Engineering. I am still waiting for the local U's results. A little worried cause I put NO when they asked if I am willing to accept other courses. But, nothing can be done, right? Learning faith, waiting and trusting Him. Can't help but to always think of the gains and losses throughout my 2 years stay after form 5. I know, I am emo! >.< Well, I have come to a point of trying to look at things from a different perspective.
Matthew 6 : 33 has been some sort of reminder for me to seek Him first and a promise that the rest will be added unto me. Perhaps I am asking too much of Him and seek Him for what He can do, not who He is. Changing that! >.< I want to learn to be like Job, and not the Israelites. To continue to believe and worship Him even when things look tough. 2009, what will be written of me at the end of this year?
Friday, May 1, 2009
Success Re-Defined?
The question today is DEFINE SUCCESS.
My life was structured on results in the past. In other words, studies. I can actually say I am quite proud at my own achievements since young and no, i wasn't just lucky. I did pay for it with my own hard work, which was not seen by most of you. So, when form 6 comes by, I thought I could fare equally well but boy, was I wrong enough. I managed to scrape through the momentary "hell", both emotionally and physically(studies) and I was struck with the 1st setback in my student life. Lo and behold, my friends started talking about what university they should choose and if they should head to Singapore and here I am, not even knowing what will come next.
Pastor Paul asked me a question on the day I did a career development test. He asked What Was My Biggest Setback throughout life and I answered him my form 6 life. The reply he gave was somewhat encouraging yet scary. He told me that this is just a small setback and in times to come, the road will be harder. I am trying my best to cling onto my faith and put aside all my personal jealousy towards my friends who did really well. I couldn't help but think of the WHAT IFS. Aih~
Psalms 107 was a comforting passage as I found out on Wednesday. It speaks of us having the privilege to call unto God when we are in distress and He will hear us. This is like a promise from Him to provide miracle when there seems none. Right now, I am learning to have faith. I am telling myself that I need to make the best of every opportunity and every moment in life. Right now, I am redefining success. I hope that I will be able to do what I am, where I am, if it's Your will..
My life was structured on results in the past. In other words, studies. I can actually say I am quite proud at my own achievements since young and no, i wasn't just lucky. I did pay for it with my own hard work, which was not seen by most of you. So, when form 6 comes by, I thought I could fare equally well but boy, was I wrong enough. I managed to scrape through the momentary "hell", both emotionally and physically(studies) and I was struck with the 1st setback in my student life. Lo and behold, my friends started talking about what university they should choose and if they should head to Singapore and here I am, not even knowing what will come next.
Pastor Paul asked me a question on the day I did a career development test. He asked What Was My Biggest Setback throughout life and I answered him my form 6 life. The reply he gave was somewhat encouraging yet scary. He told me that this is just a small setback and in times to come, the road will be harder. I am trying my best to cling onto my faith and put aside all my personal jealousy towards my friends who did really well. I couldn't help but think of the WHAT IFS. Aih~
Psalms 107 was a comforting passage as I found out on Wednesday. It speaks of us having the privilege to call unto God when we are in distress and He will hear us. This is like a promise from Him to provide miracle when there seems none. Right now, I am learning to have faith. I am telling myself that I need to make the best of every opportunity and every moment in life. Right now, I am redefining success. I hope that I will be able to do what I am, where I am, if it's Your will..
Monday, April 27, 2009
Future...Undecided
Thank you all for the comments on the previous post. It's always easy to say that probably it's not in God's plan for me to study in Singapore. However, to be able to really accept that fact and live with it, it's hard. Let's just say I had a moderate amount of good things happening in the past and would love to have that streak continue with me doing well in STPM and get a place in NUS or NTU. But as the fact shows, everything ended up the other way round. I thought I was all ready to go study in UMS since I chose there as one of my options besides UTM and UKM. My marks are barely enough for UM,UPM and USM, but still, a miracle might happen? I wish..Haha
Speaking of which, I suddenly have this question around me. Do I really want to study engineering and is it really my calling? Several conversations with Isaac make me want to confirm and give my all to make it a success. There's 2 will according to Jit, God's will and my own. Am I waiting on Him? I dont' know but I know I am waiting for miracles to happen! Haha. It will be May soon and 2009 is like passing so fast. To some of my friends, yes, being humble is good but being TOO humble sometimes make you sound like a hypocrite. Yes, I respect you and therefore I kept quiet for I know I need to learn to talk myself but please, bear in mind the feelings of the people listening when you say you WONT achieve certain things and yet ABLE to get it. I am sad, at the same time furious and envy. Arggh! Something's wrong with me.
Pause..That's where my life is at now, when is PLAY gonna be click and me resume chasing after my dreams with all my heart,soul and strength?>.<
Speaking of which, I suddenly have this question around me. Do I really want to study engineering and is it really my calling? Several conversations with Isaac make me want to confirm and give my all to make it a success. There's 2 will according to Jit, God's will and my own. Am I waiting on Him? I dont' know but I know I am waiting for miracles to happen! Haha. It will be May soon and 2009 is like passing so fast. To some of my friends, yes, being humble is good but being TOO humble sometimes make you sound like a hypocrite. Yes, I respect you and therefore I kept quiet for I know I need to learn to talk myself but please, bear in mind the feelings of the people listening when you say you WONT achieve certain things and yet ABLE to get it. I am sad, at the same time furious and envy. Arggh! Something's wrong with me.
Pause..That's where my life is at now, when is PLAY gonna be click and me resume chasing after my dreams with all my heart,soul and strength?>.<
Friday, April 24, 2009
Rejected
Dear Tan Zhi Howe,
We have carefully considered your application vis-a-vis applications from all other eligible applicants. Regrettably, however, I have to inform you that your application has not been successful. I hope that you would appreciate the fact that admission to our undergraduate courses is highly selective in view of the large number of applications we receive, and the limited places that we can offer to international students. I appreciate the time and effort you have put in to submit your application and I thank you for your interest in our University. I would also like to take this opportunity to wish you every success in your pursuit for higher education
.Dr Lalit Goel,
Dean of Admissions
Nanyang Technological University
I supposed the above text tells it all. Yes, I have been rejected. Then again, with only a 3.00 what was I expecting, right? Haha. I believed I will get about 2 more such e-mails in the coming week. Well, at least I can still laugh at myself. So, share a laugh. =)
We have carefully considered your application vis-a-vis applications from all other eligible applicants. Regrettably, however, I have to inform you that your application has not been successful. I hope that you would appreciate the fact that admission to our undergraduate courses is highly selective in view of the large number of applications we receive, and the limited places that we can offer to international students. I appreciate the time and effort you have put in to submit your application and I thank you for your interest in our University. I would also like to take this opportunity to wish you every success in your pursuit for higher education
.Dr Lalit Goel,
Dean of Admissions
Nanyang Technological University
I supposed the above text tells it all. Yes, I have been rejected. Then again, with only a 3.00 what was I expecting, right? Haha. I believed I will get about 2 more such e-mails in the coming week. Well, at least I can still laugh at myself. So, share a laugh. =)
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Life Is A Joke..
I watched the movie The Watchmen couple of weeks back and I remembered a character named The Comedian, who died while saying LIFE IS A JOKE. I think that is quite similar to how I am feeling right now? Haha. Well, doesn't matter. 3 more months. Hm, smile, people for life is a joke!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
5 years..
When we finished secondary school,we started talking about what foundation we gonna do. ADP, Form 6 or A levels. For some who had a clearer picture, they went for foundation in that certain courses. Now that most of us had finished our foundation, some had even began uni life, I guess it's time to talk about career options. It's always a tradition for friends to meet whenever there's a holiday like Chinese New Year, to catch up a little as we hardly see one another anymore. If you guys remembered, I talked about a gang called 22 Friends on my blog before. Those are the people I spent my secondary school life with. Now, I can picture the gang 5 years down the road, with all of us working in our respective fields. If I am not mistaken and everything goes well, things should look like this is 2014..
2 doctors
3 biotechnologists
1 performing artist
2 accountants, maybe 3
2 engineers, maybe 3
1 economist
1 dietician
1 teacher
2 IT guy
1 artist
2 or 3 businessman, or marketting manager or anything involved with BUSINESS
1 surveyor
If I am mistaken, feel free to correct me=)
2 doctors
3 biotechnologists
1 performing artist
2 accountants, maybe 3
2 engineers, maybe 3
1 economist
1 dietician
1 teacher
2 IT guy
1 artist
2 or 3 businessman, or marketting manager or anything involved with BUSINESS
1 surveyor
If I am mistaken, feel free to correct me=)
Monday, March 30, 2009
WIDE 101
Hi people! I have just finished the WIDE 101 training under Pastor Kelly on both Friday and Saturday. It was indeed a fruitful course as I learnt a lot more about basic Christianity chores, and the real meaning behind doing it. I also realised how choosy I am when it comes to interacting and knowing people. I supposed all this helps to further prepare me for my university life which will starts in July. Argh! I am so leaving home this time round.
Well, on the lighter side of things, I got to know some new buddies, namely the Hebronites who called themselves Ezra,Ezri and David. Well, it was quite a nice 2 days training with all the mamak-ing and lunch hour together. The on field training gave me a knock on my head though. I realised how choosy and cowardice I am when it comes to reaching out to people and knowing strangers. I am known as the talkative guy everywhere I go so I guess I will really need to live up to my name?Haha. Overall, I really am thankful to Pastor Kelly for this training and I am looking forward to 201!
Well, on the lighter side of things, I got to know some new buddies, namely the Hebronites who called themselves Ezra,Ezri and David. Well, it was quite a nice 2 days training with all the mamak-ing and lunch hour together. The on field training gave me a knock on my head though. I realised how choosy and cowardice I am when it comes to reaching out to people and knowing strangers. I am known as the talkative guy everywhere I go so I guess I will really need to live up to my name?Haha. Overall, I really am thankful to Pastor Kelly for this training and I am looking forward to 201!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
A mixed of things..
Is it as we grow older, we will be held down by more than just responsibilities? Our future, our own lives. The fearful journey of growing up, where your own life seem to be above all else. What really is important? What really is the fundamental? The cruelty of time seems more obvious with each second passing by. It seems so hard to live your lives ideally, or at least different from how you picture it. So many things I have planned yet all just evaporates like gases into the air. Regrets, a feeling when you couldn't get things done in time. Agree? We all live to have more than one regret yet how do we stop ourselves from falling down again and again? Getting cut for more than once is certainly not wise, after all once bitten, twice shy. Yet, we heed not the advice but rather choose to crashland, adding miseries to ourselves and others on the way. Like fire burning scars into their lifes. Weird, everyone is walking at their own pace. Is anyone even stopping to take a look at the surrounding? Or am I too biased? The fragility of life is getting more and more evident with your age going up. What exactly is human thirsty for? Or rather, the soul? Ponderings after ponderings. I somehow miss...
..School
..Sleeping in class
..writing notes
..talking to friends
..exams
..YOU
TZH out emo-ing..
..School
..Sleeping in class
..writing notes
..talking to friends
..exams
..YOU
TZH out emo-ing..
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Return of The Fallen..
I've decided not to give up my space for thoughts after all. I know, I memang "hangat-hangat tahi ayam" since young in everything, so I couldn't bid goodbye to my blog for more than a week. Right now, I don't have anything in particular to post yet but I certainly will continue to express what I think and feel here in this blog. Like it or not, you're stuck to reading them. Unless you choose not to visit this site, which I guess many of you would? PROVE ME WRONG! Haha!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Miracle of The Moment
The writer of this blog sincerely thanks each and everyone of you for your words of encouragement and just making him known he's not walking alone. Yes, he did not do very well. Yes, he felt angry at himself. And yes, he felt he prioritise wrongly, procrastinated and did not put his heart anywhere near the word STUDY.
Then again, he could looked at it this way. He only started preparing a month before exam. He only did like 2 or 3 hours of study everyday, that was also with a lot of breaks in between. He knew he did not put his heart into studying yet he did nothing much to fix it. Still, he nailed a 3.00 compared to many others. No doubt, it's not the best of result in his life but this was really something special. This taught him a good lesson in life, preparing him to face the coming days of university and life. He's still searching for his purpose so he can fully maximise every single breath in life.
He remembered a friend once asked IF YOU HAVE A TIME MACHINE, WILL YOU TURN TIME AROUND TO CHANGE SOMETHING? The writer would love to but of course, yesterday is history and tomorrow is always a mystery. Today is a gift and that's the miracle of the moment. If the writer had not gone through all this, he would still indulged in a "selamba" attitude in everything. For now, he's learning to enjoy the miracle of the moment. This is what he supposed make life so special. The days that passed by will serve as both memory and lesson and continously guiding him in the near future. After all, he can only work on today and change tomorrow, no? It's time to let go...
The writer is thankful for he knew he deserved none of all this and here he had just discovered a song called
Miracle of The Moment by Steven Curtis Chapman
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CJfDIlPtv74
He hopes this song helps all those who are discouraged and those who are confused with their options. Enjoy! A smile always make a gloomy day better, no? =)
Then again, he could looked at it this way. He only started preparing a month before exam. He only did like 2 or 3 hours of study everyday, that was also with a lot of breaks in between. He knew he did not put his heart into studying yet he did nothing much to fix it. Still, he nailed a 3.00 compared to many others. No doubt, it's not the best of result in his life but this was really something special. This taught him a good lesson in life, preparing him to face the coming days of university and life. He's still searching for his purpose so he can fully maximise every single breath in life.
He remembered a friend once asked IF YOU HAVE A TIME MACHINE, WILL YOU TURN TIME AROUND TO CHANGE SOMETHING? The writer would love to but of course, yesterday is history and tomorrow is always a mystery. Today is a gift and that's the miracle of the moment. If the writer had not gone through all this, he would still indulged in a "selamba" attitude in everything. For now, he's learning to enjoy the miracle of the moment. This is what he supposed make life so special. The days that passed by will serve as both memory and lesson and continously guiding him in the near future. After all, he can only work on today and change tomorrow, no? It's time to let go...
The writer is thankful for he knew he deserved none of all this and here he had just discovered a song called
Miracle of The Moment by Steven Curtis Chapman
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CJfDIlPtv74
He hopes this song helps all those who are discouraged and those who are confused with their options. Enjoy! A smile always make a gloomy day better, no? =)
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Right Now..
I feel relieved. Results were released earlier today. I did okay I guess. It would be a lie if I say there wasn't the slightest disappointment this morning. I was not only broken, I was totally crushed by what I got. Many people have said I got more than I deserved, considering how much effort I put in. I don't intend to blame anyone for my results and indeed I do feel envy of many of my classmates who did so well. I am just a mere human and therefore I can't help but to feel I should have done better. However, I realised one thing. It is at such time that I truly understand the meaning of grace. Looking at my situation, I do not deserve many things that happened to me, the so-called success for the past 18 years all the way to this morning's 4Bs. I couldn't possibly accomplished all these without Him and I am learning to give thanks in the worst of situation. Nobody ever promised that a Christian life would be one without obstacles and the older you grow, both spiritually and physically, the harder things get. I totally do not deserve His love for me, yet He chose to love me. Surely there is no better way to learn of grace than this..
Friday, March 6, 2009
A Choice..
The date is set. The verdict will be given on the 10th of March, 2009. After a long trial of 4 months, the case will be laid to rest. People involved from all over Malaysia will be there to witness the final result. Some will shed tears of joy, while others, disappointed, broken and shattered. Not forgetting those who will be shocked of the result, those who jump beacuse of excitement and of course those who, as always remain calm. Whatever it is, no denying 10th of March will be a day of mixed emotions.
Haha! Sounded very serious, right? It's actually the date for the release of STPM 2008 results. Of course, as always I am very nervous and excited at the same time. One thing is for sure, I got nothing much to lost this time round. No doubt, Mr Pride has been hurt badly and has since been laid to rest in peace. I wonder if I zombified him and not killed him cause he comes back now and then to haunt me. Aiks. Still, it has not been an easy journey to taking the STPM examinations. People always say it's super hard and yes, I agree with that but that doesnt gives you an excuse not to do it! Nothing is easy after all, right? As the saying goes, no pain no gain. I certainly hope I will gain something out of my results, a placement in university. Hehe.
I believe most people are quite nervous right now. Some because they felt they did not prepare, others fearing lady luck will stop smiling on them. Breathe and take it slow. After all, the question remains, what can you do? Not as if the government would change your B for an A just because you are scared. ( I know, some must been saying I very not thoughful. Don't stone me! )
Well, it's always about a choice. Just as you all have chosen to do form 6 and not college. So you all now have a choice to believe or not believe. To accept or to despair?
Jeremiah 29 : 11 " For I know the plans I have for you "
Romans 8 : 28 " And we know in all that things, God works for the good of those who love him"
Psalm 23 : 5 " Your rod and your staff, they comfort me "
All these verses have been sort of keeping me relaxed for now. The butterflies are not giving up on multiplying in my stomach though. Yes, we have tried on our own strength and have failed numerous times. In addition, we have also not that much confidence, with people saying a lot around us. However, why not try to let YOUR BOSS UP THERE does the job since you have done your part?
I choose to have faith and accept whatever comes by. You with me?
Haha! Sounded very serious, right? It's actually the date for the release of STPM 2008 results. Of course, as always I am very nervous and excited at the same time. One thing is for sure, I got nothing much to lost this time round. No doubt, Mr Pride has been hurt badly and has since been laid to rest in peace. I wonder if I zombified him and not killed him cause he comes back now and then to haunt me. Aiks. Still, it has not been an easy journey to taking the STPM examinations. People always say it's super hard and yes, I agree with that but that doesnt gives you an excuse not to do it! Nothing is easy after all, right? As the saying goes, no pain no gain. I certainly hope I will gain something out of my results, a placement in university. Hehe.
I believe most people are quite nervous right now. Some because they felt they did not prepare, others fearing lady luck will stop smiling on them. Breathe and take it slow. After all, the question remains, what can you do? Not as if the government would change your B for an A just because you are scared. ( I know, some must been saying I very not thoughful. Don't stone me! )
Well, it's always about a choice. Just as you all have chosen to do form 6 and not college. So you all now have a choice to believe or not believe. To accept or to despair?
Jeremiah 29 : 11 " For I know the plans I have for you "
Romans 8 : 28 " And we know in all that things, God works for the good of those who love him"
Psalm 23 : 5 " Your rod and your staff, they comfort me "
All these verses have been sort of keeping me relaxed for now. The butterflies are not giving up on multiplying in my stomach though. Yes, we have tried on our own strength and have failed numerous times. In addition, we have also not that much confidence, with people saying a lot around us. However, why not try to let YOUR BOSS UP THERE does the job since you have done your part?
I choose to have faith and accept whatever comes by. You with me?
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
YMI 2
Here I am, sitting in front of my desktop after a one week journey through Perak and Kedah. For those who did not know, I was in Tapah for a short mission stint before going to Alor Setar to join a prayer gathering. The team this time consisted of 10 people instead of pairs as in the case of the previous mission. It was really hard labour, no doubt. But despite the work and fatigue, all of us really enjoyed ourselves. I learnt a lot on agriculture and simple construction. Trust me, you need to try mixing cement and mengcangkul for yourself to feel the OHM. Haha.
Well, I think throughout this trip, God has been teaching me the same thing He taught since my STPM finished. I need to choose to believe in Him and worry less about what will happen, especially since STPM results will be out in less than 2 weeks. The agony, joy and disappointment will all be revealed very soon. Butterflies are definitely multiplying inside my stomach. I am scared and worried but I will choose to have faith, whatever will be will be. Hehe.
It was quite fun to explore Malaysia as I enjoyed travelling. I thank God for this opportunity to visit places like Alor Setar and Tapah. I believe there's more to come. Oh yea, not forgetting the people we met, whom really gave us a warm welcome and home feeling. Thank you to Uncle Young Soon and family in Tapah. Not forgetting of course, Auntie Siew Har and family in Kedah.
Thanks alot to Elisabeth too for inviting us to Kedah. Really nice knowing you people=)
I will post up pictures from the trip as soon as possible. So, stay tune.
Are you challenged now to go for mission? Haha..
Well, I think throughout this trip, God has been teaching me the same thing He taught since my STPM finished. I need to choose to believe in Him and worry less about what will happen, especially since STPM results will be out in less than 2 weeks. The agony, joy and disappointment will all be revealed very soon. Butterflies are definitely multiplying inside my stomach. I am scared and worried but I will choose to have faith, whatever will be will be. Hehe.
It was quite fun to explore Malaysia as I enjoyed travelling. I thank God for this opportunity to visit places like Alor Setar and Tapah. I believe there's more to come. Oh yea, not forgetting the people we met, whom really gave us a warm welcome and home feeling. Thank you to Uncle Young Soon and family in Tapah. Not forgetting of course, Auntie Siew Har and family in Kedah.
Thanks alot to Elisabeth too for inviting us to Kedah. Really nice knowing you people=)
I will post up pictures from the trip as soon as possible. So, stay tune.
Are you challenged now to go for mission? Haha..
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Needing Your Help!
The post below is taken from an email sent to me by a friend. This is no joke and I sincerely hope that every reader of this blog will offer his/her help one way or another. Thanks.
Dear Friends!
The girl you see is the two-year-old daughter of the physiotherapist Mr. Moe. He is working in the center for people with handicap, where Benedikt and I are volunteering.
The girl’s name is Pandora.
Mr. Moe is from Myanmar and works in Malaysia because here, he is able to earn a bit more money for his work.
Reason for that is that his daughter has Thalassaemia, what is a sickness of the blood. It means that less hemoglobin is produced and / or too much is being degraded.
For saving her life, a bone marrow transplant is absolutely necessary.
A surgery like that costs about 300.000 RM to 400.000 RM. This is a very high amount that no ordinary working man is able to pay. Mr. Moe will have to sell all his properties in Myanmar and even that will only be a small part of the financial effort.
Because of that, Benedikt and I have written to different organizations like
”MC Donald’s”, ”TDH”, “ ”Ein Herz Fuer Kinder”, “Myanmar Kinderhilfe DE” and many other. The only good response came from the German newspaper “BILD”, that is willing to give financial help as soon as one third of the whole cost for the surgery is arranged.
For donations in financial form, Benedikt and I have opened an account here in Malaysia. The account will be given to Mr. Moe as our voluntary work ends on august 17th 2009.
We are also looking forwards to information about organizations that we maybe have forgotten.
Name: Benedikt Bau & Alexander Maass
Accountnumber: 0918 – 0007239 – 525
SWIFT CODE: CIBBMYKL
Bank: CIMB Bank / Simpang Empat / Hutan Melintang / Malaysia
p/s: Sorry for not being able to post up a picture of the little girl said. For more information, please feel free to inquire me. Thanks!
Dear Friends!
The girl you see is the two-year-old daughter of the physiotherapist Mr. Moe. He is working in the center for people with handicap, where Benedikt and I are volunteering.
The girl’s name is Pandora.
Mr. Moe is from Myanmar and works in Malaysia because here, he is able to earn a bit more money for his work.
Reason for that is that his daughter has Thalassaemia, what is a sickness of the blood. It means that less hemoglobin is produced and / or too much is being degraded.
For saving her life, a bone marrow transplant is absolutely necessary.
A surgery like that costs about 300.000 RM to 400.000 RM. This is a very high amount that no ordinary working man is able to pay. Mr. Moe will have to sell all his properties in Myanmar and even that will only be a small part of the financial effort.
Because of that, Benedikt and I have written to different organizations like
”MC Donald’s”, ”TDH”, “ ”Ein Herz Fuer Kinder”, “Myanmar Kinderhilfe DE” and many other. The only good response came from the German newspaper “BILD”, that is willing to give financial help as soon as one third of the whole cost for the surgery is arranged.
For donations in financial form, Benedikt and I have opened an account here in Malaysia. The account will be given to Mr. Moe as our voluntary work ends on august 17th 2009.
We are also looking forwards to information about organizations that we maybe have forgotten.
Name: Benedikt Bau & Alexander Maass
Accountnumber: 0918 – 0007239 – 525
SWIFT CODE: CIBBMYKL
Bank: CIMB Bank / Simpang Empat / Hutan Melintang / Malaysia
p/s: Sorry for not being able to post up a picture of the little girl said. For more information, please feel free to inquire me. Thanks!
Monday, February 9, 2009
Leaving Singlehood?
Love is in the air. Do you smell the chocolate and flower scent? Or rather, do you hear your wallet screaming in pain as more cash is being poured out? This Saturday is Valentine's Day. In other words, it's the time of the year again where couples around the world celebrate this special day of love. Hm, ever wondered the origin of Valentine's Day? Well, let me give you a brief introduction into this special occasion. =)
" Valentine's Day or Saint Valentine's Day is a holiday celebrated on February 14 by many people throughout the world. In the West, it is the traditional day on which lovers express their love for each other by sending Valentine's cards, presenting flowers, or offering confectionery. The holiday is named after two among the numerous Early Christian martyrs named Valentine. The day became associated with romantic love in the circle of Geoffrey Chaucer in the High Middle Ages, when the tradition of courtly love flourished. An alternative theory from Belarus states that the holiday originates from the story of Saint Valentine, who upon rejection by his mistress was so heartbroken that he took a knife to his chest and sent her his still-beating heart as a token of his undying love for her. Hence, heart-shaped cards are now sent as a tribute to his overwhelming passion and suffering."
There is actually more than 1 type of Valentine's Day available and I believe many, if not most of us would love and enjoy celebrating this year, or at least us whose hormones are still very much raging. Then, again, is all this really true love? Hm, how do we even define what true love is? There's a verse in the bible that writes "there's no greater love than one who's willing to lay down his life for another ". And somebody did exactly just this. Who's the guy? He's none other than Christ Jesus. 2009 years ago, he was sent to earth by our Father in heaven to die on the cross for our sins and to suffer for our wrongdoings. What other love can be compared to someone who's willing to die, for our sake and faults. I will leave that for you to think. I know for one, I wouldnt be able to do such task, or at least would choose to be like Peter, cheat my way out of troubles.
It's of course not wrong to get yourself a girlfriend but unless you are serious and ready to commit then it's really pointless to do so. Talk is cheap. I aint trying to judge anybody here but all the talks of undying love and certain people being your reason of living is really hypocritical unless you really mean it! I remembered Jit once said that the heart is just like a ping pong ball. When it's crushed, just putting it in hot water and it will return to its original shape. No doubt if we have been hurt in relationship, we could move on but the scar will always remain there. Like it or not, things will never be the same again.
I read of an interesting analogy before where before a guy got married, all his ex-girlfriends came up at him and he felt ashamed in front of his future wife because he had given a part of his heart away and it was not whole for her. How sad but this is the reality of today. If we start a relationship just as a try out or driven by emotions, we will be like going on the road with a gas tank half-filled. It will start out smoothly but it will die down halfway through. The results, hurt for both parties. Ouch! I am pretty sure some, if not most of you have such experience, or experiences ( which I hope not ) before.
So, being in love is more than just telling I Love You. It's to actually mean it. Being in love is more than just celebrating Valentine's Day together once a year but to make everyday as significant as Valentine's Day. Being in love is not finding the perfect guy/girl, it's to see perfection in the other party. Being in love means more than just being around each other everyday but to feel and know of one another's presence despite the fact you both are as far as two different ends of the world. Being in love means commiting your life to one another.
L.O.V.E means Loving One another V Everything? Haha. I came up with that. Lame, I know.
As for the title, I aint leaving singlehood..just yet. I don't know when my time will come but well, who's rushing? I know I always say about getting a girlfriend but before I learn to love God, my parents and people around me whole heartedly, I am not qualified to say I really love someone or to deserve the other person's love. Well, I take this opportunity to wish every couples HAPPY VALENTINE"S DAY and for those who are still single, let's enjoy every moment of it.
p/s: This post is not meant to condemn or judge anybody. Just a piece of the writer's mind. Any
events mentioned is purely coincidental.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Happy Chinese New Year & Happy Birthday!
Happy Chinese NIU Year to all of you. Today is also Human Day, the 7th day of Chinese New Year, which to the Chinese means everybody's birthday so there you go, Happy Birthday! I have been having some sort of writer's block earlier without anything in my mind to blog but well, not many people do read this blog anyway, right? Well, Chinese New Year this time round has been rather slow. To begin with, most of my relatives did not come back this year and we are not visiting them too. Then, both my sisters have only a two days break from work and university respectively. It was a quite time at home throughout this one week, with some visitations to brighten up the dull moment. Surprisingly ang paos this year were not very much affected by the economy crisis. Now who says everything is undergoing recession? Haha.
I am currently on a job hunt. Have to find something to do, learn and fill up my time I guess. Don't want to be regarded as an idler who is living off his parents. Haha. So, anybody who has any job offer, feel free to tell me. As long as I get paid, I am happy =)
I just got my memory card back so I will post some pictures of my mission trip and probably update a little about it soon. For now, I am tired both physically and emotionally. It's rather true when you walk closer with God, the devil certainly disturb you and people around you. Argh! Learning to walk closer with Him. I certainly need to sort out couple of things in my life and make it correct again.. hm..
I am currently on a job hunt. Have to find something to do, learn and fill up my time I guess. Don't want to be regarded as an idler who is living off his parents. Haha. So, anybody who has any job offer, feel free to tell me. As long as I get paid, I am happy =)
I just got my memory card back so I will post some pictures of my mission trip and probably update a little about it soon. For now, I am tired both physically and emotionally. It's rather true when you walk closer with God, the devil certainly disturb you and people around you. Argh! Learning to walk closer with Him. I certainly need to sort out couple of things in my life and make it correct again.. hm..
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Back!
Ladies and gentlemen, I am back. I was part of the YMI 2009 team and was sent to Teluk Intan, Perak to work with special children. With very little details told, it was scary because the team did not know what to expect. Somehow, things went on smoothly and we had fun in Teluk Intan. I am kind of lazy to go into details so I probably will post about my personal report in the next post. Haha. Well, one thing I really learnt is to be faithful in the little things. Be still and know that God is God. What lies ahead of us, He will worry about it. We just need to take one step at a time. NS, STPM results, Uni..Here I am...
Monday, January 5, 2009
Writer on Leave
Beginning tomorrow, I will be undergoing training for Youth Mission Initiative, which requires us to serve in a certain mission field for 10 days. I will be leaving town on Friday if everything goes according to plan and will be back only by the 19th. The schedule seems a bit packed so I probably will choose to sleep more rather than on9 for the next 3 weeks. A good fasting time! Haha. Well, I believe this is a time for me to personally seek the Lord and to learn to submit to Him totally and to live my life for Him and Him alone so yeah, TZH out!
Stay tune for stories when I return!
Stay tune for stories when I return!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
What A Beginning..
Hello 09! It's a new year, a new start, a new beginning. Time to put all the disappointments and regrets of 08 behind and look forward to 09. And I had a fantastic beginning to the year. I was nearly bitten by a dog and couldn't make it past the 1st day of the new year! The experience certainly is scary! Haha! For details, ask me or Yong Ling personally. Enjoy your new year people!
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