Graduation = Goodbye?

I just catched this long-awaited movie with couple of friends on Friday. No offence here but this movie is nicer than the 2nd and more real than the 1st. The songs are mostly slow this song, which I really enjoyed. The title is SENIOR YEAR, which means the final year in High School. The next stop in life is college. In the movie, it talked about attending colleges and being away from friends you really love and treasure, each person going after their own dreams. My own graduation is coming. I am leaving STK for the 2nd time in my life and this time, it's for good. I will not come back into STK as it's students. Happy? Sad? I don't really know. Mixed feelings about graduating. All the more after watching this movie. I wonder where I will be heading next, or rather what do I want in the future? The thought of only being a student for another 4 to 5 years before the working society welcomes you is rather scary.

Come to think of it, a student's life is really the sweetest. No wonder seniors always encourage us to have fun in school. Regrets, disappointments, joys and most importantly FRIENDSHIP are what we will be taking away from high school I supposed. I know the journey wont just end here but rather it's moving to a whole new level from here. So, happy graduating all my friends! Let's all enjoy our prom and our last days of school!

Find Yourself

The exam stress is getting to everybody. End of the year marks the beginning of examinations, one after the other. The excitement of sitting for it alongside fear of not doing well. Throughout our lifes of chasing after things, I supposed there'll be times when we lost ourselves. Times when we are like WHAT"S NEXT? The struggle to rediscover ourselves and what exactly life is all about is a hard journey in life. Here I am sharing a song which I hope will help you people out there and myself to find the important thing in life, ourselves.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XxXY2-44bCs&feature=related



Find Yourself by Brad Paisley

When you find yourself in some far off place
And it causes you to rethink some things
You start to sense that slowly you're becoming someone else
And then you find yourself...

When you make new friends in a brand new town
And you start to think about settling down
The things that would have been lost on you
Are now clear as a bell
And you find yourself,
Yeah that's when you find yourself

Well you go through life
So sure of where you're headed
And you wind up lost
And it's the best thing that could have happened
Cause sometimes when you lose your way, it's really just as well
Because you find yourself,
Yeah that's when you find yourself.

When you meet the one, that you've been waiting for
And she's everything, that you want and more
You look at her and you finally start to live for someone else
And then you find yourself,
Yeah that's when you find yourself

Well you go through life
So sure of where we're headed
And you wind up lost
And it's the best thing that could have happened
Cause sometimes when you lose your way, it's really just as well
Because you find yourself,
Yeah that's when you find yourself.

A Moment To Remember

Today is 17th October 2008. A normal Friday like every other, the thing that differentiate it is that a memorial service was held in remembrance of Reverend Chong at Herald. A year ago, he was summoned back home by the Lord and left many people with huge grievances. Today was a moment to remember him and his works here. 360 days had passed since the accident. Cruelty and reality of time is clearly shown here. The guy who never stops working, TIME is just moving so fast that we all barely grasped whatever is happening around us.

There are just so many unfulfilled wishes, dreams and tasks. What's left after a year is regrets and disappointments. Things went well, things went wrong. The parts and parcels of life just keep occuring, even when we felt like turning the clock back or to an extend, stopping it. Human always desire for better things. The search for happiness is never ending. The goals just keep on adding on till perhaps even infinity. Worries, fear and at the same time excitement. All these emotions just keep mixing and playing around one another as each day passes by. Hm, exactly a month left to STPM, how are each and everyone of you feeling?

I felt like I could have done better, could have done more. But I guess people grow up through failing and what matters most is moving forward, not letting anything stop you. A chapter of life is about to come to an end while new ones are opening up. Even in the middle of all these hectic and uncertainties, let us not forget to take a moment to remember and be grateful. Gratitude makes tough times better, no?

Diverging or Converging?

Yesterday was a hectic day. Beginning with a free breakfast session courtesy of a teacher and then shopping for clothes at The Store before making our way to T6 for an open house. Luqman, I know you might not be reading this but still, the food was great and thanks for the hospitality!
Boy, it poured like it hadn't rain in a week yesterday. Visibility on the road is close to 0! I hate heavy rain! Haha!

Well, I was having a talk with Merv and Jie Eunice after breakfast this morning about relationship, in particular married life. She said something that's like really the key to maintaining a relationship, commitment. In a relationship, there tends to be rough and bad journey but it just takes understanding and tolerance to come out of such storm. She went on to add that people changes over the time and it's a never-ending process, which is very true. Whether or not a relationship works out depends on both the parties, not just one side tolerating the other. Instead, it's about changing together and marching forward together despite the differences and arguments. Hm, so I supposed relationship can be linked to Maths 1. It's either a converging relationship, where both parties will meet at a point in changing or a divergent one, where both parties go their own separate ways, for better or worse. I think this actually applies in every relationship, not just the boy-girl one. Agree? If we don't see eye to eye with one another, I suppose all we gonna get is constant misunderstanding. Aih~ Aih~

I need to start applying what Uncle Mark preached today. Fill my mind NOT with dramas but with things about the Lord so I can rejoice in every situation. Aw..people, REJOICE!:P

You're the One..

Since the beginning of this week, I've been feeling like a rubbish. In fact, it wasn't the first time I'm on a ride on this emotional roller-coaster which more or less constantly torment me inside out. Haha. I am still very much alive though. It has been a ME,MYSELF and I problem since the beginning of my form 6 life. The more I want to avoid making mistake, the higher tendency I hurt people around me. I've pictured out how I want my form 6 life to be, yet everything just seems to backfire. Nonetheless, I am learning a lot through all the dramas in life. I am not at any point blaming or trying to stab anyone through this post.

I have been on a war with my inner self, just sliding down in my walk with Christ. It's like the Murphy's law then beginning to take place. Everything that can go wrong is going wrong. There has been fun times and joyous ones throughout the year but I've allowed my emotional side and the so-called sad things to overshadow every single good that the Lord has brought unto me. I blamed this, I blamed that but never myself. I am not please with anything because I am extremely not please with myself.

Howerver, the Lord is good and faithful. On the edge of breaking down, there He is with the reinforcement to get me out of troubles. I thank God for people He brought into my life, things that He allowed me to see. Throughout this time, I really want to thank someone, Gideon Koh Hee Liang. Though I find joy in bullying you sometimes but it's an undeniable fact that you are actually one making me continue to believe, continue to have faith. Thanks dude, I owe you big time. I've been working outside my limits as I've said before and now I'm just going to use this final 80 days with friends to try and get the best out of it. Working within limits, I shall not corss the boundary anymore.

A new found inspiration in my life, Joseph Merrick a.k.a the Elephant Man. The faith he has is just so amazing and he really did show what it means to be joyous in times of difficulties. The story is way too long to be elaborated here. Read about him on Wikipedia.org. I believe many will be inspired and challenged. Aw. It feels good to be back. STPM, here I come. My future, here I come!

Just a little something for everyone to bear in mind:

Tis true my form is something odd, But blaming me is blaming God. Could I create myself anew, I would not fail in pleasing you. If I could reach from pole to pole, Or grasp the ocean with a span, I would be measured by the soul, The mind's the standard of the man.

awake or asleep?

The Raya break is coming to an end. Just a week ago, we were all looking forward to the beginning of a one week break. In a glimpse of an eye, Deepavali is coming and after that, STPM. Reality check, it's very VERY VERY near! I am not prepared, I admit! Haha.

Hm, for once I don't know what to write. I have a lot on my mind yet I cant convert them into words. Perhaps those thoughts are better off left where they are and move on. Live and let live! I am like waking up again after sleeping for a very long time.LIterally, I do fall asleep quite often! Haha! Anyways, Selamat Hari Raya and Happy Deepavali! STPM, I am coming!