Guilty As Charged!

Well,recently I have been going through some events where I get alot of fingers pointed at me,saying I did stuffs that sort of hurt them.I guess I am at fault and I take the blame totally.I realise I need to stop trying to convinve people I am right,whether in a good or bad way.I admit I have a very bad-tempered and I can just flare it at anyone if they did something that,to me get on my nerves.I like to step up and take charge of things,thinking whatever I do is right,most of the time I get into troubles with many people and of course,throughout the years I have learnt I am actually pretty much wrong on every occassion.It's not the 1st time I have someone saying at me I should control the words that come out from my mouth.I think I have been pretending to be all right with what I said and thinking everything is fine,which in fact,isnt.

I realise sometimes certain actions I do and certain words I said not only affect myself,but people around me as well.It's so true that your mouth can build someone up or tear someone down.Sometimes,just because of words I have said or actions I have taken,it can spark quarrels or worst till,hatred among others.I should not do what that will cause people around me stumble.If I have ever did any of those to you,I sincerely apologised.

I do not like it when I am being reprimanded but I have learnt that when I am at fault,all I need to do is keep quiet and listen.Listen more and TALK LESS is what I need to practice.Building up my character as what Pastor Elijah stressed in the camp is just so true to me as of now.I need to start giving up the rights to be right in every situation,whether I am wrong or not.I believe I can do it and I just want to say I regret for bringing and tearing you guys down sometimes.I hope everyone of us,including myself will be able to practice the Elevator Principle like John Maxwell said and just bring everyone up,not down.

Anyways,Christmas is around the corner.Shouldn't we be joyous and bring some joy to people around us?Btw,TZH is rather broke lately.Anyone willing to bless me with some hard cold cash?:X

Christmas

A season of love and blessing.Christmas is just around the corner.In fact,it's only a week away.How time flies.Well,we have a pre-christmas celebration at the public library on Sunday,16th December and it was pretty fun.This year around,we get to hold the event inside the library and the library actually invited us to do it.I enjoyed the whole event.Nothing beats a smile and the joy children have.It's really priceless.So all of you out there,STOP WORYING SO MUCH and let's be joyous!Christmas is here!Haha..Anyways,here are some pictures for you all..

ESP 6

Hola everyone.I had come back from the ESPlosion 6 camp that is held in Inti College Nilai.To begin with,I was rather excited and at the same time,a little dissatisfied.Well,I was expecting some place that's nice like Bayu Beach for the camp but turns out we are going to Inti where we are to stay in hostel and used a common toilet,no air-con too!Before I left for camp,I have written down a few things I sorta expected at the camp.I wasnt feeling very good,both physically and emotionally throughout the camp.So as a kickstart,I decided to help out as much as possible during camp and occupied myself with works so as to keep my mind focus.I think I over-exhausted myself cause I got a very terrible sore throat by 2nd day of camp.Haha.

Well,the speaker Pastor Elijah was cool.His messages were very straight forward and short and based alot on the bible.I thought the messages were nice.I mean,long messages actually drove me to dreamland.Hehe..Well,on the 1st night he spoke on character and that God is always watching us no matter what we do.I have been guilty of feeling it's all right to do certain things when I know I aint supposed to do so.So,yea..that got into me and a 2 days before the camp,someone came up to me to tell me that he thinks I should work more on building my character.Ok,now is that a coincidence?Leave that to u to decide.

He also said that it's not the speaker that matters,nor does the PA and all.It's the word of God that matters.Often,we are so indulged into getting good PA systems,good speakers then only the messages will be good.But that really does knock us all on our head hard.One very important thing was this too.IF YOU HAVE FAITH,GOD WILL PROVIDE.Many a times,we are just so scared to try something and always saying,I aint good enough.Truth is,we are good enough.Just that we are denying our own abilities that God has given us.It's not that life is unfair.WE ARE BEING UNFAIR TO OURSELVES!

Well,I somehow enjoyed being alone more during the camp.I wasnt exactly a loner and I enjoyed companionship.But during the camp,I tend to to just wanna be alone and I did that on several occassions,just quieting down myself and seek the Lord,which helps and I think I have sort of gotten the answers to my expectations in the camp.I got to know alot more people in this year's camp too.Btw,the food was nice but way too spicy.4 days of indian food and my throat is still sore!HELP!!!!

Fairytale VS Reality..

Well,I have just watched a movie called Enchanted.It's a movie by Disney's that mixed up all the fairytales we have ever known into one story.The story was funny,the song was nice and seriously it's a fantastic movie.Wait..Am I here to talk about the movie?Of course not.Well,it's just that this movie got me pondering over a question.I guess my title says it all.FAIRYTALE VS REALITY.

Do you all believed in fairytales?believed in dreams coming true?believed that everything will have a happy ending?Well,I do.Doesn't everyone of us does?When we were young,I believe most of us would be indulging into stories like Cindrella,Sleeping Beauty,The Mermaid,Aladdin and so much more.Disney's has just mesmerised each and everyone of us since young.Since when did we lose that belief that there is a happy ending for every story?As we grow older,we tend to be influenced by the world and just really focus on things that are so-called important.Fame,status,materials and wealth is what we believed will bring us a happy ending in our life.Think again,does it all really matter?Can you really bring those with you when you leave this world?I'll leave that for you to ponder.

For the past 2 days,I have been involved in the soul survivor camp.It was great and I don't deny I was having an emotional breakdown these couple of days.Pastor Mike spoke of someone who really made me realise how naive I was.That person is none other than someone called Hilda Bachelor(I hope it's correct!).She always seems to have time for everyone and cared about everyone around her.People would tend to think she's a nuisance but think of it,if you have a bad day and someone just comes up to you with a smile,doesn't that just bring a little warmth?I realised no matter how busy we are going after things,even in terms of serving God,we always have time for others,just to care for one another.So I really encouraged all of you out there to just take a steps slower and look at people around you.There's always time for everything.

It's pretty hard to just say such things and not living it out.It's kinda like hypocriscy and I don't deny I am pretty much TALK THE TALK but rarely WALK THE WALK.So,here I am trying to really just learn how to build my character and be a better person,a blessing to everyone around me.What has this got to do with happy ending?As Christian,we are told that if we accept Christ as our personal saviour and obey His words,we would be in heaven by end of our life and we would received His blessings abundantly.So,think of it..isnt this some sort of like a happy ending we are all seeking for?I myself was seeking for something and when I could not get it,I would be like.."Man,the world is coming to an end..".Of course,nothing comes easy.In order to achieve the fairytale ending we all dreamt of,we need to really work on our relationship not just with God but with people around us too.

So,yea.Ladies and gentleman,let's all just take things slowly and who knows,things will change for the better when we thought it's a nightmare instead of a fairytale?

p/s:TZH is currently looking for his fairytale princess.Anyone willing to be one?:P

Soul Survivor...

Soul Survivor Camp is held in Kluang this year.I missed the previous one as I was having my SPM examinations when the camp was held.Before the camp began,I sorta like have no expectations or whatsoever from camps this year.Then,that got me pondering and I decided to just list down a few things I expect to learn this year.So I did.I have been to Christian camps since 2005 so I know a little on how the sessions are like..and to tell you all the truth,I was like..ok..serious time but I wasnt prepared or anything for the camp earlier.But you know what?God is great!He just totally amazed me tonight..once again I felt His presence and the message preached by Pastor Pilavachi just struck me so hard and somehow answered a question I jotted down yesterday.If that was not amazing enough,try this..Midway through the prayers,Pastor Mike Pilavachi asked if someone's left leg was not feeling good and that person is me!Truth is..nobody knows about the pain except me!How amazing God is.I am really looking forward to tomorrow and also the upcoming ESP camp.Thank you Lord for You are an amazing God!

Fun?Work?

December is slowly approaching.In less than a week,we will be in the last month of year 2007.December seems to be a month of activities for me.Few activities waiting to be accomplished:

1.Soul Survivor Camp
2.ESP Camp
3.Christmas project with CBC
4.Christmas Carol
5.Read books
6.Complete my "homework"
7.Learn up my drums basic

Hectic month I would say.Still,christmas is approaching.A season of givings and blessings.
Anyone want to bless me with any gifts or money?:P

And The Verdict Is...

I think each and everyone of us have our own way of looking at things,right?Perspective is the word.Have it ever crossed your mind how others think of you?Have you ever wondered what's your impression towards a certain someone?I am pretty sure you have.Why?Because we all do the same.We will tend to look at a person's behaviour and come up with a conclusion about him or her.We would not like it when people think we are not good,but we would be more than happy to think bad about someone.Although,sometimes that person did something we all learnt to be "not so correct" the again,where does the scale lies?Are really that qualified to judge someone?It seems to be beyond my ability and wisdom to make judgement and conclusion as of now.Reason is pretty simple,most of the conclusion I made now seems pretty bias so I don't really like making conclusion about someone.

The bible stated that DO NOT JUDGE OR YOU WILL BE JUDGED THE WAY YOU JUDGE OTHERS.It's hard to achieve that but I am trying hard to shelve off my pride and just give every1 a benefit of doubts.Then again,what if that someone is really doing something so-called wrong in every1's eyes?Sit aside and do nothing?I guess wisdom plays a real important part when it comes to such times.Aih~Things always seems so much easier back then.The more you grow,the harder relationships become.Guess all I got to do is focus on building good and healthy relationship.

Thinking back,I wasnt such a nice kid back then.I can actually made some so freaked out that he never want to see me again but now,we are real good mates.What happened?I guess it can only be explained by a simple word..LOVE.God's grace and love can really transformed someone and I think I should take things one step at a time and not making conclusions which will create hatred and anger inside me.You with me?