The Voice Of Truth

Here I am,back blogging after so long.I know it's been long but I have been rather busy to actually think of something to update about.Sukantara had just passed and I donated 2 points out of 4.I know it's not exactly considered an achievement to some of you but I am really proud of that 2 points I donated.I actually passed 100 metres after 6 years of failing it.I really thank God for that.My sports house,as of today is on top of the leaderboard for Sukantara.Hehe.Don't play play..

Sometimes I feel moody because I sort of feel left out in certain things.It's just like "why is he chosen over me?I can do better!".Well,I realised that's kind of stupid.As a team player,it doesnt matter who's chosen over who but whether or not we marched on as a team.We need to always give our full support to those who are out there playing their guts out.Being the moral support is very important as we are one team.Instead of being jealous,we should cheer and not jeer.

I was reading on Daniel in the bible earlier on and the phrases actually reminded me that God knows everything about me.Whatever I am going to go through or I had gone through,God knew and He was and He is and He will be there.The lack of faith is what that pushes me backwards and dare not to walk out the 1st step.I always feel unhappy when I don't seem to get the trust of people and tend to think "why on earth is he/she so good with he/she but not me?".It happens in yf,school and even friends around me.I am a very very big "vinegar jar".Haha.I realised TRUST is something you need to earn,not just by trying to be good with that certain person,you will be rewarded with it.TRUST doesnt come so easily.Therefore,we need to give our 110% everytime someone entrust us with a task.We should also be glad that we have a God whom we can trust at all times.

Past failures certainly haunt us whenever we try to do something and the thought of failing is certainly very scary.For instance,if I do not perform well in my STPM at the end of this year,not only have I wasted 2 years,my future is left hanging in the air too.However,there is always a VOICE that tells you a different story.The VOICE OF TRUTH,voice of God.I remembered the mlm session I attended touched about listening to God.Do not do much,just come before God and listen to what He's got to say.It certainly helps you alot when you need it.In everything you do,a little faith can really work miracles.

Therefore,I am going to try my best to take everything as it comes by,both good and bad.Learn about it and put forth my faith,to trust in God and of course to give my best in everything.

EVERYONE HAS AN EQUALLY IMPORTANT ROLE IN EVERYTHING.THERE"S NO STAR PLAYER BUT TEAM PLAYER.

Facing The Giants..

Contrary to my previous post,which sort of attracted quite some attention I just want to say,it's just some sort of mood swings thingy.Don't worry ladies and gentleman,TZH is back alive and kicking.

I just went to Youtube and watched some clips from a movie I had watched some time ago,called Facing The Giants.It totally just reminded of many things,as I tried to recapture events in the movie.When we are in trouble,we often choose the easier route out,RUN!Everyone of us is the same,right?

I lost faith easily when things are not going right.For example,I began to doubt my own abilities in my favourite sports,after playing like craps this afternoon.I thought to myself that I am not good at all and don't think that I will be able to make it into the school team.Then again,God just reminded me through this movie that I should always have faith in Him and try my best in the sports.It's not just about winning or losing,it's about giving my all.Whether I am in or out,I will still praise Him.

Sometimes,I would ask why am I so weak?Not just in terms of faith but so much more.Through this movie,I realised that God's power and mightyness will be displayed through our weakness.We are not made to be weaklings,instead to show how great God is.God never gives up on any of us and we should always have faith for He will provide.

Though I am weak,You're strong....

Emo..

It's been a rather tough week for me.My emotions constantly swung from high to low every now and then.Just what exactly is wrong?I don't know.Mood swings I guessed.It's been those days that seems to pass by just like that,without much significance.However,it's not exactly a BAD week,just that it wasnt that good.God is still good and somehow I can feel His presence and hear His words even more during such times.Everytime I tried doing something stupid,the Big Guy up there seems to send someone or somethings to constantly remind me what I ought to do and ought not to do.Pretty scary har?I guessed I had just enough to go by these past few days.Nothing hyper,nothing really low.

Just want to share something with you all..

Have u ever liked someone sooo much, that u just couldnt tell them? have u ever had a sleepless night because u couldnt stop thinking about them? have u ever felt so lonely that u cried urself to sleep? have u ever lost someone u loved and prayed every night for them to return? do not take anyone for granted...

This was what I received from my facebook account.Don't get me wrong.I absolutely don't mean anything special to anyone.:P.I just want to stress on the part of DO NOT TAKE ANYONE FOR GRANTED.It's so very true.Every single person that comes into our life is not by chance,therefore the relationship we built with each and everyone of them is very important,yet at the same time we just tend to neglect certain people,dont we?We would also refuse to accept certain people into our clicks or say just find that person annoying?Worst of it all,we tend to see certain people as transparent in our lifes.Sometimes when we were so busy building new relationships,we forgot about old ones.

I made a promise to myself that I wished to spend the best of the time allocated to me with every single person,not wanting to regret even for a second.Have I accomplished that?The answer is pretty obvious,isnt it?I have another 349 days,the clock continues to tick away.Emotions seem to get the better of me lately.Well,got to take one day at a time like what Jie Eunice wrote before and cherished every moment,I guessed...

TZH out...

p/s:I may be extremely talkative but I aint that good when it comes to..you know..emo stuffs.
I just want to apologise if I have hurt anyone of you during this times with my actions and
behaviour.Sorry..

Before and After..

The day started with me going to school,and was so-called late.It went on with all those co-curriculum registration thing and off I went for guitar lesson at Eden.I went makan with the Eden gang too after my lesson.Got home,and in less than 30 minutes I went out again.This time,to yf.Haha.Busy day,right?

The Youth Mission Initiative a.k.a YMI people will be leaving for their mission trips.I remembered going for my mission trip in Kota Tinggi last year about the same time too.So,they led the youth fellowship today.It was rather different having other people to organize games and shared in yf,as in youths.They shared their testimonies before becoming a Christian and how life changed ever since,which led to me thinking.."How has mine changed since that fateful day in Eden that I chose to accept Jesus as my saviour?".

I still have a very huge problem of keeping my mouth shut.I always tend to fight back when people say stuffs that,to me is unpleasant.I stated before my temper aint so good,therefore it makes things all the more worse.I am trying my best to just SHUT UP when I need to.Well,nobody says by accepting Christ,you changed 180 degrees straightaway,right?This is a process,long and hard but the reward is sweet.Okie,let's roll the tape back a little.How my life was like before I became a Christian?

To begin with,I was really KIASU.I wanted to be involved in whatever people were into.I wanted to own the latest games,although my requests were often rejected by my parents.I imitated the way my friends spoke,or some actors or actresses and always tried to make myself the center of attention.I felt extremely happy when people all focused on me.I still do,hehe..
I was sort of pretty much blessed too.I had gained much fame even at a very young age.I did not know how to handle those and in the end,it all built up to my arrogance.I perpetually looked upon my friends as inferior or to a certain extent,STUPID.I had absolutely no problem calling them IDIOT or STUPID.It became some sort of helping verb to me.

When I grew older,the arrogance grew too.I was enrolled into STK,the best high school in town.I was so proud of myself and to me,other school students are not as smart as us and they are mostly ah bengs and ah lians.I don't really bother mixing up with other school people,even in tuition classes,I would still feel I was the best.I was frigging power-crazed too.I craved for the fame and power to be in leadership position and eventually went for many AGMs to try and get myself a post.As time passed by,I began to follow the trend too.I spent almost like 1K on some cards that were so famous back then.I went out faithfully every saturday just to play cards and buy cards.Then,came the CYBERCAFE ERA.I joined my friends for on9 games and wasted quite some money on it.Well,swearing and using vulgar languages were also part of what I picked up.

Still,I thought life's good.I scored well in school,but when I got lower marks,I would feel so bad and felt like my day was ruined.That still occurs as of now,just that it's not so bad.It wasnt until I joined CG one day after a meeting that I discovered there's more to life than what I had been doing.Erin and King Chai invited me for the 1st time and I went.I wasn't really paying attention cause most of the stuffs they said were like "Christlikeness,living for God and etc".I wasnt so open back then to such stuffs and had always felt Christian Fellowship is a brain wash thingy,where they made you into one of them.This was partly due to informations fed to me by people around me.So I was rather unreceptive when it came to such stuffs.Still,I went to CG on fridays,if possible and then I joined YF for the 1st time,wanting to just complete my moral project as they were having a gotong-royong.

I went every week after that and began to learn more and more about God.I did not receive Christ straight away,but took a year's time to discover and feel God for myself.Since accepting Christ,my temper is slightly better and that I have learnt to be strong in all the things I do too.I used to give up very easily when things got tougher and very lazy to continue on in certain things.I always felt frustrated easily and did alot of stupid stuffs(still do,sometimes).But as I grew in my faith,the way I spoke and the way I interacted changed too.I think I am no longer that arrogant and that I have kicked off quite a number of bad activities.Still struggling with a few but I will try my best to kick it off,with God's help of course.

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 2 Corinthians 12:9

I believe by God's help,everything is possible and like I had posted before,my life story will never be the same.Struggling no more I shall...

What's on my mind?

Pictures speak a thousand words.It's very true,isnt it?When we take a look at pictures we took,whether we are in or not in the picture,it always bring back memories.I'll always chuckle a little taking a look at the pictures I took,remembering what took place back then when I snapped the picture.I like photography cause it can really tell alot of stories and best of all,it's like some sort of file that helps keeps the best moments of life.Don't really think there will be a picture that will look exactly like the ones you had took,unless you developed thousands of copies.

So,why exactly am I speaking about pictures?Haha,it's just a random metaphor to something more significant,MEMORIES.As we grow older,we will be kept so busy by things that we tend to miss out on little aspects of life.The fun we had with friends,family,the celebrations,the joker pictures.As we grow much older,VERY MUCH older,our memories will start to fail us and we will not be able to remember alot of things.Pictures help us remisnisces the good old times.

Well,have you ever been so upset due to certain changes in life?Wondering if you could travel back in time?I believe everyone of us does.We always get upset,disappointed or lose hope when things are not going our way,or it changes from the way it used to be.So,what can we do about it?People grow and so does the relationship.Nothing much will ever remained the same.

"Value what's left and not what's lost".Just like the sun that will rise every morning and the buds will appear once more,all hopes is not lost.We got to continue to strive even harder for life and things in life.Things may be lost or changed,but we still are who we are.So i believe we should always try our best to develop what's left and not grieve over what's lost.After all,will it come back if you do?If it does,I don't mind grieving 365 days a year!Haha!

So,people,just want to say..DONT EVER GET DEPRESS ABOUT THINGS INSTEAD LOOK FORWARD TO A BETTER TOMORROW.Things will never be the same.:)

Faith..

We had YF in church to kickstart the year yesterday.Jit said he thought it would be appropriate for us to start yf in church so as to set our life right.I think I totally agree.Many people have stated that I have grown a little in terms of faith.But the truth is I still failed to give up many old habits and hanging onto things so tight,knowing very well there's no point in doing so.So,am I being a hindrance to people in terms of coming to know God?I hope I am not..

I have been in yf since 2005 and throughout all these years,the advisors have been stressing on reaching out to our non christian friends.Sharing the gospel with people who do not believe in it.Upon entering form 6,I happened to be placed in a class with 5 christians student(include me) and I can really see many of them being enthusiatic to share the gospel.Me?I tried and I do not deny certain things do hold me back in terms of that.I just want to recommit my life to God and try my very best to live for Him and Him alone.I can really say I was part of the gang that sorta seems dry and not having victory.Well,I dont blame anyone but myself for it.So,to the rest of the yfers,if you are reading this,I am sorry.

It just seems so hard to try to convince people that God is true and that they should believe in Him.It's especially harder when you meet people that might get on your nerves.Ok,I admit.My temper is bad.I believe there's many areas in my life that need to be changed before even considering reaching out.I think I am sorta a hypocrite if I go around talk the talk,but not walk the walk.I have another 360 days left in year 2008,hoping to make the best use of it.

It's just like what Ps Elijah said during esp,no point of a torchlight shining at another 1.I should start giving a thought to every actions and impacts it has on people around me,especially non christian friends.Life's really getting tougher but I am still alive.Haha.

Someone once say,not seeing it doesnt mean it's not there.I guess that's how you can describe faith in terms of Christianity.We worship a God that we don't see but I believe that He's there and He's real.If you need proof,lotsa it but I believe when one personally come in contact with God,he needs no proofs.I need to rediscover the faith I used to have.Right,TZH hasnt exactly been strong in terms of faith throughout last year.>.<

All in all,I just want to try my very best to be different,really different and not let other thoughts overpowered me.I hope I will be able to do it.

TZH out to get some sleep!

Fight Back To School..

Well,my title is actually from a movie from about 10 or 15 years ago.Haha.School started,much to many of our dismay.Everyone went back to school,carrying different feelings.Mine is sort of a mixed one.My class has 5 newcomers this year and we sort of bonded well,so far lar(oni 2 days of sch!What do you expect?)My form teacher also changed and we were given orders that guys and girls must not sit together,as in side by side.The BGR thingy must have gotten the teacher's attention.Anyway,teachers all went into teaching as soon as they entered class.Fuh!But so far so good,at least for now I havent gotten tired of doing homework and studying.Another 10 months before STPM,my final major public examination.Wuhoo,how fast!Still remembered myself entering STK as a blur and lost arrogant 12 year old kid and seeing the form 1 reminds me of the times I spent.Sobs.Memories is always nice.>.<

Well,after telling you all about my 2 days of schooling,want to wish you all HAPPY SCHOOLING.Speaking of school now reminds me I still have homeworks to finish.So tata!

TZH out to complete his piles of homeworks(yours truly owe teachers lotsa homework)

p/s:Do not follow his example..bad bad..

Hello 2008

Hola everyone.Wishing you all a very happy new year!Finally,2008 is here.I've posted 60 blog posts for the past 9 months of blogging.Wuhoo!How did you spend your final day of 2007?I did it in quite a fun way..Haha.

First,I helped my grandma painted her house.It took me like whole afternoon.Tiring but it was kinda fun.Then,at night I went to country club for its countdown party.Got bored and went to Oasis to look for the eden gang who were camping there.Countdown with them and it was a rather different countdown for me,considering I had actually attended countdown parties since the year 2005.

They were telling the kids on appreciating their parents.Be grateful that we all have parents who care for us.It just sort of struck me after hearing the message last night.Come to think of it,aren't all of us are guilty of taking our parents for granted?We tend to think that parents deserved to do everything for us but think again,do they really need to go through so much trouble for you?Take a scenario for example,if your mum calls you while you're out of town,what's your 1st reaction?Ok..say,your mum calls you everyday.You will be like "man,she's kinda naggy and "fan"".Then again,what would happen if someone you like calls you?You will enjoy it,right?I mean,people..family means more than anything!

Well,had a picnic with the yf gang in Gunung Berlumut this morning.Nice one day trip to kickstart 2008.I had fun.It's time to start the engine again.School starting in two days.Sobs..
I THINK I am ready for the challenges that lies ahead and time to really give up alot of things,things I have been holding on and reluctant to give up.Are you ready for the new year?

LET 2008 BE NOT JUST ANOTHER YEAR BUT ONE THAT WILL LAST IN YOUR MEMORIES FOR AS LONG AS POSSIBLE!