Hajimemashite 2009!

The last day of the year, with less than 3 hours before fireworks start bursting into air and people start shouting HAPPY NEW YEAR. In certain countries, the countdown will happen in a matter of minutes. Wow! 2008 is really ending! What's your plan to end the year? What's youre new year resolution? I know the 1st thing I need to do tomorrow on New Year's day is to get a hair cut! Haha. Till then, Happy 2009 people!

08 to 09

The transition from year 2008 to 2009 will take place in less than 30 hours. The year has come to an end. I am a guy who likes to know the reason to doing something and especially chooses to do mostly things that brings benefit to me. So, I constantly ask myself what and how much have I gotten out of this one and a half years in Kluang. I chose to stay back, when the whole world thought I am leaving for college. Well you see, I am the youngest child in the family and you can call me a pampered kid so it makes not much sense that someone who has the privilege of getting things easily would choose to stay back for form 6 BUT I did. Don't even bother asking me the reason, I don't have an answer for that.

I can only say it's probably God's purpose for me to stay back for another one and a half years. Like what Daniel posted, he was broken and he gave thanks for it. So do I, I failed rather miserably throughout this period of time and entering the deepest pits of emotion. A friend once said perhaps my failure in exam does not necessarily means I am a dumbo. And Pastor Victor had clearly stressed more on that during ESP that Failure Is Not Final. I have learnt a lot about humbling myself and to just give thanks in every situation. Despite the fact, I am kind of a loser out there. Not into gaming, or anything else that bonds people together, I supposed God will still use me for He's strong when I am weak. He is IN CHARGE, not me. So all I can do is wait and continue to seek Him. Aih~

Who in the world said 08 will be a good year? Those fortune-tellers better make more accurate decision for 09..:P

Blessed Christmas!

Merry Christmas to all of you! I know it's abit too late but still, better late than never, right?
Well, how did you all celebrate Christmas this year? For me, it was rather different as I had a busy Christmas day. What I did was for me to know and for you to find out. Haha.

Well, Kluang Mall finally opens for business and is drawing large crowds in up till today. It looks quite good for a small town like Kluang. Many peers are working in there now, making me feel a little inferior as I aint working myself. It's like half the school is there. Haha. Hm, 5 more days to the end of 2008. What's your new year resolution? What's your next step?

Pondering..Waiting..Deciding..

It Ends Where It All Started..

I'm back from a graduation trip with my fellow schoolmates. I went to Penang, Cameron Highlands and lastly Kuala Lumpur. Penang and Cameron Highlands was an eye opener as I had never been there before while KL is just, like every other holidays, SHOPPING and more SHOPPING. Penang really deserve the World Heritage Status as most of its building have been well maintained and its style is just so unique, however there are some eye sores here and there. Did not have enough time in Penang so probably will drop by again if I have the time. Went to 3 temples and Gurney Plaza and Queensbay Mall. The food there is nice by the way!

Cameron Highlands is like a journey back to nature. Everything is fresh and slow there. The weather is nice though. Saw roses, cactii, strawberries and bees and tea leaves. A very nice experience with a horror ride. The road up and down causes most gals to feel nausea. KL was all about shopping. Spending time with these bunch of friends whom I have known, mostly for about 1.5 years only is really a great pleasure. Somehow, I felt abit emotional to leave everybody. Yea, I know, I have been an eye sore or pain in the neck but I must admit I do appreciate you guys! ALOT!

It all ended where it started.That was my thought when we stopped by Yong Peng earlier today. The trip kickstarted with a halt in Yong Peng and all the way up and finally ended with another short break at Yong Peng too. Somehow, I felt my life is the same. I entered STK at the start of my teens year and exited it as a..say..young adult?Somehow I felt God is always trying to tell me something through this 1.5 years in Kluang. I could have just left but I did not yet I could not really make up what have I gotten through this time.

Yes, I am feeling abit emotional as I am leaving for national service and probably will hardly see them again till results time. I am still worried bout my results. Haha! Well, people, thanks for making my 1.5 years so colourful.

Thank you, you and you and you and you all!

ESP 7

ESP 7 had just ended. Another event off the calendar. Aw, I can hear 2009 approaching. Well, let's not get to there for today. Haha. ESP is a camp organised by the English Speaking Presbyterian hence the abbreviation ESP. It's an annual event and this year it was held in Majodi Centre in Johor. It was a rather nice place, just that it lacks recreational areas. :x The camp this year round is rather special, to me at least.

Going into ESP, i was not excited, contrary to what many people around me felt. I had no idea about what I want out of this camp and I just went cause I have friends going for it, so I had to tag along. The past one year hasnt been fully a good one, nor was it a bad one thus leading to a tired and emotional TZH. The 1st night itself Uncle Ven asked us to write down things we expect to see or receive from the Lord in this camp. The very 1st reaction I had was I GOT NOTHING I WANT. After some time, I did squeeze out somethings and eventually looked forward to the messages from Pastor Victor. The camp this year was rather special as there was not so much altar call nor were the messages too much to handle for non christian friends we have invited. I felt comfortable throughout the camp.

It's like day in, day out I had let studies, people, and even sometimes serving takes over God's place. I tried to forget about things I want to by working hard to serve God and forgot the real purpose of serving, or rather the real purpose of being a Christian, to seek God and put God 1st above all else. This was what I was reminded of from the camp and I felt like I am back to where I started, a baby Christian who desire to seek the Lord 1st. I am just like being reverted from I think I know a lot to the current stage of I know nothing, it's good though. Many areas that I am struggling with, many things to be done and I am just gonna make sure I am ready for what may come..

Back to basic, people!

Dilemma..

Today is officially 1st day of my holidays. Waking up to find out that school uniform, school rules and the same old boring assembly are all history now seems a bit weird. I still can't believe I had finished my high school life. It's only a short journey of one and a half years yet it seems like so much had taken place within this short period of time, way more than I can remembered from my 5 years of secondary school life. Somehow, it's rather weird to be hitting the road again with no destination set. Worrying about my results and my future looks to be the best and right thing to do now, besides enjoying myself of course. Haha! Well, will this time go into the waste? In terms of results, only next year will I know. In terms of maturity I supposed I moved on quite a bit compared to my former self. People you meet, things that happened, changes that took place. All these just add up to make a bitter sweet memory, like it or not it's stuck in my head for awhile. Hm, a long holidays packed with activities is coming up. Oh Lord, help me to have more faith!

It's Done

It has officially ended. STPM 2008 is over! I had finished it and been "finished" by it. Contrary to the excitement and joyful feeling I used to have, I am feeling rather relief, hoping for the best to come out of it next March. Books are up for grab, FOC so do tell me if you're interested!

Right now, I am just gonna enjoy tis short break and every moment of it. A lot of activities coming up. So, till then!

Form 6

High School Life ended with the Annual Dinner last night. The event everybody anticipated since the beginning of the year had drawn up its curtain. Everyone looked so different last night, at the least the girls did. From the usual studious look to last night's feminisme, some of the girls did make jaws dropped. A short and simple dinner is how I would describe last night's dinner. No offence to the juniors. You people did a fantastic job for the dinner so kudos. Simple is just a word I like to use, I like simplicity so it doesnt make the dinner any less successful.

Looking back at this one and a half year's journey, a lot certainly had taken place. Maybe I was too young to remember every detail of my secondary school life or mayb the short span makes me remember things alot more better but undeniably Form 6 life did occupy a large part of my memory, be it good of bad. I've started a raging battle on Me, Myself And I. Sounds funny I know but the inner self of mine had been, and still is one of my biggest enemy to date. From scoring 10 As to mere passes in form 6, my pride had been hurt badly. Seeing half the class being chosen as pelajar harapan and for the first time in my life, I was not expected to be the elite. I take full responsibility of all these, because I had allowed myself to fail. But well, like what every teacher said, push hard for the final goal. I have less than a week left. A lot more grounds to cover. Just keeping my fingers crossed. Haha. I am just glad I was never alone, am not alone and never will be alone. Putting aside all the differences and own emotions, I certainly see things alot better. An indication of what's to come and what's to be left behind. I have a lot of thoughts as usual but I am leaving them where they are due. Right, it's time to quit pc, till I return in 3 weeks time. Bye Bye every1! Bye Bye Form 6...

Graduation!

Today was graduation day. The end of my form 6 student life. With one more obstacles to cross and a new stage in life after that. Come to think of it, form 6 was never in my agenda of life yet I ended up doing it. Nonetheless, I did enjoy my one and a half years stay with its bitter sweet moment. Today was also pictures day, so I will show you some I took in school. For more, go to my friendster. Malas want to update here! Haha!

Ivan, kawan 7 tahun and I
Shi Hao and I

Jolene and I

Due to popular demand..

Buddies

Miss Lileen, my Physics teacher Miss Foo, my Chemistry teacher

Mr Quek, my Maths 1 teacher

The girls of PU2F1 with teachers

Majlis Restu

Graduation = Goodbye?

I just catched this long-awaited movie with couple of friends on Friday. No offence here but this movie is nicer than the 2nd and more real than the 1st. The songs are mostly slow this song, which I really enjoyed. The title is SENIOR YEAR, which means the final year in High School. The next stop in life is college. In the movie, it talked about attending colleges and being away from friends you really love and treasure, each person going after their own dreams. My own graduation is coming. I am leaving STK for the 2nd time in my life and this time, it's for good. I will not come back into STK as it's students. Happy? Sad? I don't really know. Mixed feelings about graduating. All the more after watching this movie. I wonder where I will be heading next, or rather what do I want in the future? The thought of only being a student for another 4 to 5 years before the working society welcomes you is rather scary.

Come to think of it, a student's life is really the sweetest. No wonder seniors always encourage us to have fun in school. Regrets, disappointments, joys and most importantly FRIENDSHIP are what we will be taking away from high school I supposed. I know the journey wont just end here but rather it's moving to a whole new level from here. So, happy graduating all my friends! Let's all enjoy our prom and our last days of school!

Find Yourself

The exam stress is getting to everybody. End of the year marks the beginning of examinations, one after the other. The excitement of sitting for it alongside fear of not doing well. Throughout our lifes of chasing after things, I supposed there'll be times when we lost ourselves. Times when we are like WHAT"S NEXT? The struggle to rediscover ourselves and what exactly life is all about is a hard journey in life. Here I am sharing a song which I hope will help you people out there and myself to find the important thing in life, ourselves.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XxXY2-44bCs&feature=related



Find Yourself by Brad Paisley

When you find yourself in some far off place
And it causes you to rethink some things
You start to sense that slowly you're becoming someone else
And then you find yourself...

When you make new friends in a brand new town
And you start to think about settling down
The things that would have been lost on you
Are now clear as a bell
And you find yourself,
Yeah that's when you find yourself

Well you go through life
So sure of where you're headed
And you wind up lost
And it's the best thing that could have happened
Cause sometimes when you lose your way, it's really just as well
Because you find yourself,
Yeah that's when you find yourself.

When you meet the one, that you've been waiting for
And she's everything, that you want and more
You look at her and you finally start to live for someone else
And then you find yourself,
Yeah that's when you find yourself

Well you go through life
So sure of where we're headed
And you wind up lost
And it's the best thing that could have happened
Cause sometimes when you lose your way, it's really just as well
Because you find yourself,
Yeah that's when you find yourself.

A Moment To Remember

Today is 17th October 2008. A normal Friday like every other, the thing that differentiate it is that a memorial service was held in remembrance of Reverend Chong at Herald. A year ago, he was summoned back home by the Lord and left many people with huge grievances. Today was a moment to remember him and his works here. 360 days had passed since the accident. Cruelty and reality of time is clearly shown here. The guy who never stops working, TIME is just moving so fast that we all barely grasped whatever is happening around us.

There are just so many unfulfilled wishes, dreams and tasks. What's left after a year is regrets and disappointments. Things went well, things went wrong. The parts and parcels of life just keep occuring, even when we felt like turning the clock back or to an extend, stopping it. Human always desire for better things. The search for happiness is never ending. The goals just keep on adding on till perhaps even infinity. Worries, fear and at the same time excitement. All these emotions just keep mixing and playing around one another as each day passes by. Hm, exactly a month left to STPM, how are each and everyone of you feeling?

I felt like I could have done better, could have done more. But I guess people grow up through failing and what matters most is moving forward, not letting anything stop you. A chapter of life is about to come to an end while new ones are opening up. Even in the middle of all these hectic and uncertainties, let us not forget to take a moment to remember and be grateful. Gratitude makes tough times better, no?

Diverging or Converging?

Yesterday was a hectic day. Beginning with a free breakfast session courtesy of a teacher and then shopping for clothes at The Store before making our way to T6 for an open house. Luqman, I know you might not be reading this but still, the food was great and thanks for the hospitality!
Boy, it poured like it hadn't rain in a week yesterday. Visibility on the road is close to 0! I hate heavy rain! Haha!

Well, I was having a talk with Merv and Jie Eunice after breakfast this morning about relationship, in particular married life. She said something that's like really the key to maintaining a relationship, commitment. In a relationship, there tends to be rough and bad journey but it just takes understanding and tolerance to come out of such storm. She went on to add that people changes over the time and it's a never-ending process, which is very true. Whether or not a relationship works out depends on both the parties, not just one side tolerating the other. Instead, it's about changing together and marching forward together despite the differences and arguments. Hm, so I supposed relationship can be linked to Maths 1. It's either a converging relationship, where both parties will meet at a point in changing or a divergent one, where both parties go their own separate ways, for better or worse. I think this actually applies in every relationship, not just the boy-girl one. Agree? If we don't see eye to eye with one another, I suppose all we gonna get is constant misunderstanding. Aih~ Aih~

I need to start applying what Uncle Mark preached today. Fill my mind NOT with dramas but with things about the Lord so I can rejoice in every situation. Aw..people, REJOICE!:P

You're the One..

Since the beginning of this week, I've been feeling like a rubbish. In fact, it wasn't the first time I'm on a ride on this emotional roller-coaster which more or less constantly torment me inside out. Haha. I am still very much alive though. It has been a ME,MYSELF and I problem since the beginning of my form 6 life. The more I want to avoid making mistake, the higher tendency I hurt people around me. I've pictured out how I want my form 6 life to be, yet everything just seems to backfire. Nonetheless, I am learning a lot through all the dramas in life. I am not at any point blaming or trying to stab anyone through this post.

I have been on a war with my inner self, just sliding down in my walk with Christ. It's like the Murphy's law then beginning to take place. Everything that can go wrong is going wrong. There has been fun times and joyous ones throughout the year but I've allowed my emotional side and the so-called sad things to overshadow every single good that the Lord has brought unto me. I blamed this, I blamed that but never myself. I am not please with anything because I am extremely not please with myself.

Howerver, the Lord is good and faithful. On the edge of breaking down, there He is with the reinforcement to get me out of troubles. I thank God for people He brought into my life, things that He allowed me to see. Throughout this time, I really want to thank someone, Gideon Koh Hee Liang. Though I find joy in bullying you sometimes but it's an undeniable fact that you are actually one making me continue to believe, continue to have faith. Thanks dude, I owe you big time. I've been working outside my limits as I've said before and now I'm just going to use this final 80 days with friends to try and get the best out of it. Working within limits, I shall not corss the boundary anymore.

A new found inspiration in my life, Joseph Merrick a.k.a the Elephant Man. The faith he has is just so amazing and he really did show what it means to be joyous in times of difficulties. The story is way too long to be elaborated here. Read about him on Wikipedia.org. I believe many will be inspired and challenged. Aw. It feels good to be back. STPM, here I come. My future, here I come!

Just a little something for everyone to bear in mind:

Tis true my form is something odd, But blaming me is blaming God. Could I create myself anew, I would not fail in pleasing you. If I could reach from pole to pole, Or grasp the ocean with a span, I would be measured by the soul, The mind's the standard of the man.

awake or asleep?

The Raya break is coming to an end. Just a week ago, we were all looking forward to the beginning of a one week break. In a glimpse of an eye, Deepavali is coming and after that, STPM. Reality check, it's very VERY VERY near! I am not prepared, I admit! Haha.

Hm, for once I don't know what to write. I have a lot on my mind yet I cant convert them into words. Perhaps those thoughts are better off left where they are and move on. Live and let live! I am like waking up again after sleeping for a very long time.LIterally, I do fall asleep quite often! Haha! Anyways, Selamat Hari Raya and Happy Deepavali! STPM, I am coming!

Right?

I've just watched a movie entitled Freedom Writers this afternoon. It's about how a teacher inspired and changed her students' life by using unorthodox teaching methods, which worked yet was not recognized by many who goes law by law. This is based on the true story of Erin Gruwell, a teacher in US and her students. So, it's really inspiring.

One of the thing in this movie is learning to put our differences aside and not let anything that people say get to us. Many a times, success depend on one person's mind. If we ever allowed people to dictate our life, we will never be able to make a breakthrough. Instead, we should strive to change, there's no one thing in this world that can stopped you from your dream as long as you try hard enough.

The story talks about white and black's discrimination, holocaust and things that are closed to teenagers facing problem in an area in US. We as teenagers of Malaysia faces our own problems too, only mayb it isnt as radical as the ones in US. Miep Gies, the person who hide Anne Frank during the holocaust said this I DIDN"T HIDE ANNE TO BE A HERO, I ONLY DID THAT BECAUSE IT WAS THE RIGHT THING TO DO. That sentence really made an impact. It struck me right there that many times we do things to please others, to get into their good books or simply because our friends require us to do it. But what we have failed to realise is this, the reason behind our actions. I've been trying to more or less be someone I aint and I get very tired and hurt at the end of the day. I guess perhaps it wasnt the right thing to do after all. In life, we need not please everyone but we need to be straight with God. I have been doing things beyond my range of work, it's time to focus on things that are important to me. I am gonna do things because it's the right thing to do. :p

So, yea do watch the movie. The actress is quite pretty also. Hehe..

What's next?

I'm on holidays,again! The Raya holidays is here! Can you smell the ketupat? Haha! I still remembered the last Raya holidays I had, it was to prepare for the lower 6 final examination. This time around, no more final exam after Raya but it's the horrifying STPM! Done with trials and did "ok", I guess. The high school years are finally coming to an end, 1 and a half year of form 6 is finishing. The question remains, did I enjoy my stay?

A conversation I had with Cheng Yee some time ago had him saying GO TO SCHOOL AND ENJOY YOURSELF. He said he was playing a fool most of the time in school with his friends, enjoying the period of time in STK. I believed many of us have done that. As for me, let's not go there. :X Hm, perhaps I am like what many people said I am, attention seeking. I enjoy being around many people and wish to be part of everything, most of which doesnt seem to work out. Reality check, mayb I am just asking for too much. Opss..

Well, another 2 months to STPM and 3 to freedom, hm..What's next?

The Short Return..

Ah,finally found some time to blog. I've been rather busy wasting my time, besides studying for my trials for the last 2 weeks. Trials just ended, with mixed emotions. I hope I did just well enough for better results compared to the previous ones. :X

Well, Jie Eunice and Jaeson's wedding took place on the 6th, with many of us involved. It was a really great event and very touching to see them both tying the knot. For pictures, please visit
http://www.jaesonandeunice.org The dinner was held at Peking Sutera in JB and boy, that restaurant is so huge and classy! It's located in the newly developed township of Sutera Utama and sat right next to Sutera Mall, a new shopping mall and one that's meant for girls, as usual :P.
Went there courtesy of Yosh as I hitched a ride on his beloved Wira when I was supposedly to be taking the bus. We reached Pekin in 45 minutes time and took about the same time to reach home. Hehe. New record :P

Just heard the news that a warrior for God, Pastor Sunther passed away. It was rather sudden. He was just telling us that he will be going to Korea for some convention this year and the next thing we know, the Lord had summoned him back home. Life certainly is fragile, hey? I still remembered the conversation between Yosh and Pastor Clement from KT about death. Pastor Clement said that we will leave this world once we have fought the battle we need to as in the case of Paul ( or izzit Peter?) Dont stone me! I studied too hard for trials dy! Haha.
Well, when do we know if our job here is done? Or how do I even know if my job is being done?
Life is certainly full of mysteries. Aih~ I don't really like sad moments.

Speaking of which, yours truly is sick, quite sick. So, ciao! "MC" tomorrow from school! Those who know me well will get what I mean. Haha

Check Up..

Today is 4th September 2008, my birthday is over with no official celebration or what so ever. I did, however received many sincere wishes from many parties. So, to those who showed me their love and care, thank you! It's a quiet affair as I've expected. No surprise party, no grand celebration, no extreme splurging but just a little time to reflect on the fact I am 18. I looked in the mirror and couldn't believe the guy I am seeing is 18.

So I've decided to go through some things in life since I've turned 18.

Head..CHECK
Health..CHECK
Heart..^@#$^~%~#$

I wished I could have typed CHECK but I think I need to reconsider the condition of my heart, once more. Plainly saying my heart is in the correct condition just simply doesnt make any sense. Yea, the same old problem. Immaturity of TZH. More often that not, I think I tend to act solely based on my emotions, and not rational. It's like I've grown up quicker than I'm supposed to. Yosh said that I am somehow still immature in certain areas of my life and I agreed with him hands down. The attitude is still one heck of a big prob. Aih~

I got to reset my heart to the correct condition, my eyes upon His statutes.

Guide me O Lord for I'm lost and weak..

17 to 18...

Time for some self-indulged, super perasan post! It's that time of the year again! Today is September 3rd, 2008. This marks the coming of age for yours truly, who turn 18 today! Yeah, let me hear it! Where's all the wishes?! Haha. Kidding bout those wishes. Well, in a glimpse of an eye, I am 18. Transiting from a teenager into a stage I would like to call Young Adult is certainly something I have been looking forward to. Now that it's here, not much of a feeling pulak. Aiks, I guess this is human nature.

Today is a rather quiet affair, as it had always been. My family wasnt the type that celebrate special occassions grandly or at least those activities stopped after I entered high school. I remembered splurging quite abit on my previous birthdays giving my friends a treat, but I had somehow turned it into a quiet affair by PURPOSELY forgetting to celebrate, using trials as excuse when I was form 5. So, yea. This post is super random with the thought of trying to gain some attention here! Haha.

Alas, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! :P

p/s: miss yilian, satisfy?

MERDEKA!!!!

MERDEKA! That was the roar made 51 years ago, when Malaya ( now Malaysia ) gained its independence from the British. Happy Birthday Malaysia! Well, Malaysia seem to be one country its citizen never really like. More often than not, we hear people wanting to migrate because there's a better future elsewhere. Come to think of it, I used to not like my own country! But somehow, if you just opened your eyes bigger and looked at it carefully, Malaysia is actually a nice place to live in, I guess.

Wonder why certain countries like Korea, Japan and the United States can improve so fast and become economic powerhouses in our times? It's because of one simple word, UNITY. Have you ever noticed how these people sing their national anthem when they won a medal for their country? It's with honour, passion and respect. Think of it, how about us? Sad to say, many Malaysians aren't that way when NEGARAKU is played. Yeah, blamed the government all you want for not instilling patriotisme in us but remember IT TAKES TWO HANDS TO CLAP. Look at African countries and also some South American countries. Why are their conditions worse than us? It's because there's constant inner war, between the people themselves. Without Unity, it will get us no where. Let's not get political here so we should always bear in mind, respect the country, the authority and complain less about Malaysia!

Haha. Well, I've just watched SUMOLAH. A local production last year by the comedians of Malaysia and Singapore. NOKOTTA is what I've learnt. Until the end of the day, you wont know the results so all the more you got to push harder. The only opponent in life is you, yourself. Lose faith and sayonara from there. So, people do watch it. The lead actress is pretty!

Lastly, Happy Birthday Malaysia! I am proud to be a Malaysian, are you?

News

With the Beijing Olympics over, I can't help but to think that time is indeed so fast ahead of us. Who would have thought that 16 days seem like such a period of time? It felt just like yesterday when you were watching 204 nations marched out onto the Bird's Nest and next thing you know, GOODBYE BEIJING, HELLO LONDON. Malaysia did well with its 1st olympic medal after 12 years. The ahtletes did their best regardless of what the results are. After all, they are the nation's best. Want to complain? Wait till you get to don on the national colours, win a medal, then you bising! :P

Argh! School begins 7 hours from now. A short week of hectic holidays is over just like that. I was involved in the Johor Form 6 Carnival and got to know a bunch of fun juniors from all over Johor. I was reluctant to go but still enjoyed it more or less. Then, it was off to KL to visit an old time friend. His condition certainly is getting better. Praise God! I cant wait for the day when we will all play basketball again, mate! Did a little shopping too with Eric and Andy on this trip. Oh well, it was a short but fun trip. Leo installation was next, followed by watching Wall E with the Shelter Kids. It was a cute movie, not exactly the mega box office movie, but like Shrek 3, a movie in a league of its own. Moral learnt, TREASURE EARTH BEFORE IT"S FULL OF THRASH and BRING YOUR DATE TO THE MOVIE! Haha. Well, ELS Farewell Party was next. Thanks alot, new board. The food was good. Too bad I missed your performance. All the best man!

Ah..I havent study a single thing as usual for trials. Back to business as usual in couple of hours. I just missed the good old days. Haha. In the meantime, chill everyone..

Homo sapiens..

Well, time for some big post again ( sorry la miss yilian, no random post ). Haha! Recently I have been pondering about the phrase "homo sapien". For those who studied bio, you guys probably know what it means. For those who don't, it means human being. It was told that each and everyone of us is special and unique in our own way, created in God's images. Scientifically it has proven that we are all unique individuals as none of us have the same fingerprints. We all have different heights and weight too. Well, the most important aspect of it all, the way we think.

Each and every individual is special in his or her own way of thinking. From choosing who they like to who they hate or what they want and what they don't. No one person in this world could really understand the other, I think. Understand as in thoroughly know you inside out, from what you did to what you gonna do. Even twins could not understand one another that well. So I guess it's rather normal for us to have miscommunication, which lead to misunderstanding, right? More often than not, people always failed to clear things up. Human beings swore for changes yet the next moment you know, they reverted to who they were or what they were doing. Sad, right? Even I myself am guilty of that. I think that's why we need God to guide us and keep us safe from reverting to our old self, one that might not seem so perfect. I aint saying that our life can be perfect but little by little, changes can be made to avoid all the unnecessary hurt, right?

Hm, human have weird minds. Agree? If so, is it good or bad? Aw...STPM in less than 80 days..

Time Of My Life..

The world is coming to an end on 2012. That's what NASA predicted. You buying that story? Many does though, fear stricken at the thought of dying. However, we all know that the world will come to an end one day, don't we? That's when our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ makes his 2nd coming to create a new earth. You buying this story? I think many people would choose to believe in the 1st story and hoped on the MARS exploration to succeed, so we can all move there and stay happily ever after, or so it seems.

Many people choose not to believe in salvation offer by grace and think earning merits will give them a better next life, or even land them in heaven. Well, I don't wish to start a debateable topic here so I shall not go off from here. What I am trying to say is this, HOW YOU THINK DECIDES WHAT YOU SEE. In other words, perception. It's something in us, part of us and of us. Hard to be changed but not impossible. All problems start from how you view things. If you are with a heart of thankfulness then yes, everything will be well. However, life is never a bed of roses. There will tend to be thorns here and there, cutting you now and then. Yea, so you will indulge in all the anger, misunderstanding or even hatred. Good? You decide yourself. It's very important for us to put on the right specstacles. The moment you decided to stamp some1 with something, that's it. Like it or not, it's never easy to change how you think. Therefore God's word is important in providing with the wisdom to discern.

I just have another random thought earlier, the world's influence on us is so much larger compare to God's hey? Perhaps we are so part of this world that we slowly get conformed by it. The scale of good and bad lies in your perceptions. Nothing is 100 % good or 100 % bad in this world. It's only a matter of boundaries, whether or not you are going overboard with whatever you are doing. Jit has always reminded me that if what I am doing is a stumbling stone or at any point, raises question about myself and other people then don't do it. I believe that's important so as to win people over. It's about how we are different from them that matters, not how same we are I guess.

As Yosh has said, prayer is a powerful thing and throughout this week, I must admit it's really true. Let's pray our way out of all these. No more hurt, no more pain. This is the time...

Just a song by David Cook which certainly inspires me alot:

Time of My Life

(verse 1)

I've been waiting for my dreams

To turn into something

I could believe in

And looking for that

Magic rainbow

On the horizon

I couldn't see it

Until I let go

Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn

Now I'm coming alive

Body and soul

And feelin' my world start to turn

(chorus)

And I'll taste every moment

And live it out loud

I know this is the time,

This is the time

To be more than a name

Or a face in the crowd

I know this is the time

This is the time of my life

Time of my life

(verse 2)

Holding onto things that vanished

Into the air

Left me in pieces

But now I'm rising from the ashes

Finding my wings

And all that I needed

Was there all along

Within my reach

As close as the beat of my heart

(chorus)

So I'll taste every moment

And live it out loud

I know this is the time,

This is the time to be

More than a name

Or a face in the crowd

I know this is the time

This is the time of my life

Time of my life

(bridge)

And I'm out on the edge of forever

Ready to run

I'm keeping my feet on the ground

My arms open wide

My face to the sun

(chorus)

I'll taste every moment

And live it out loud

I know this is the time

,This is the time to be

More than a name

Or a face in the crowd

I know this is the time

This is the time of my life

Time of my life

More than a name

Or a face in the crowd

I know

This is the time

This is the time of my life.

This is the time of my life.

Dilemma..

92,91,90...It's slowly approaching. The monster called STPM will be here in just another 92 days! I am barely surviving in my results and just finished another test which I did not study for. Gone. My future to be decided in less than 100 days. Ladies and gentlemen, be afraid, BE VERY AFRAID cause I am!

Well, been in a little dilemma lately or should I say since some time ago. Who to trust? What to believe in? What is the truth? It's like I am completely losing my way, that's for sure. 1st time in my life being so lost. I know, studies should come 1st but well, I have a complicated mind. Ugh!

I think I am seeking attention here, you agree?

Annual Dinner 07

If my memory serves me correctly, I've not had a post about the MPPPU Annual Dinner last year. So I've decided to upload some pictures from that function. Why am I doing this?

1. I dont wish to study, so wasting some time here.

2. Just to commemorate the dinner

The new Board

The hosts

Princess Gang?

Sweet moment

Pu1f1 class of 07

The old Board

Mr MPPPU 07, Daniel Eh

Violin Performance

Pavarotti in the makin
The backdrop

The 3 musketeers

SeniorsMiss Neo More seniors

I AM GETTING MARRIED!

The couple

My aunt's and my family

My lovely parents

My NEPHEWS

Do not be shocked by the post. I am not getting married, at least for now. Haha. I still have like at least 6 years to go to see my future love one walking down the aisle with me. I was away from Kluang for 2 days. Had a short trip to Singapore to attend my cousin's wedding. If you notice the 1st picture up there, the bridegroom is my cousin. Handsome, right? ( sorry ladies, he's taken ). Quite a number of family members gathered in Singapore for this wedding. We all had a pretty good time chatting, catching up and just enjoyed.

Safra Resort was our residence for the 2 days we were there. It was a really high standard club and resort. The facilities are complete and the main attraction, it's located bear the sea, where you can actually walk by foot to the seaside in a matter of minutes. Stayed in a bungalow in there and there's this bowling alley that got all the kids so excited about. Haha. The dinner was held at Holiday Inn, Orchard Road. It's a very nice place but not exactly as grandeur as I imagined it to be. ( Before I entered the ballroom that is ). There's this cocktail party too where we all socialised before entering the ballroom for the banquet. They had a 2 person singing group to just entertain us with ballads after ballads throughout the dinner. The funniest part was when my cousin was pranked on the stage by a famous radio personality of Singapore. To add more spices to the wedding, they had the indian chef danced to the tune of HIPS DONT LIE with the food in his hand to kickstart the dinner. Imagine that! The chandeliers was really gorgeous too.

Well, came back home after the dinner and reached at about 2. Slept and couldnt wake up. So TZH played truant for today. Hehe. Well, I wonder whose wedding is next?

Approaching A Century...

This will be my 99th post. Can you believe it? I've started out blogging for fun, as it was some sort of trend among my friends and turned it into a space where I converted my thoughts and my feelings into words. I even remembered a friend saying she's lazy to read my blog because most of the posts are very long. One even commented that I think too much through the ideas I conveyed in my posts. Haha.

The reality of STPM approaching in less than 100 days is sinking in deeper and deeper. I wonder if I will be able to telan those books and be able to work the solutions out come the exam day. Fuh. Kan Chiong-ness in the air! I got schools on Saturdays, not one but 3 of them ! Yes, I am unwilling to go but I am still going to school. All the tasks needed to be completed by the month of July is done. Some breather finally as one of the most hectic month is over. Next up is BOOKS, BOOKS and MORE BOOKS to telan. Haha.

Well, MYPG was held last Saturday and it certainly was rather "grand" I would say. I think everyone got something out of this event but like what Jit said, what was more important is that we begun by taking the 1st step to changing this country, which is LOVING IT. All the time, we say we are Malaysian but out of 10 people at least half wished to migrate from here. We are people of this nation and once we lost hope, that's it! I've been reading on couple of Asian countries lately namely North Korea and Cambodia after watching some programmes on these 2 countries. They made me open my eyes real big. Don't ask me why, just go read about it yourself! :P

Right, still got school tomorrow. So off I go to try and get some sleep.

the YANGs...

Recently I've been indulging myself in some China history, sort of getting back to my roots a little. I am currently watching the series entitled YOUNG WARRIORS OF THE YANG CLAN. It's about the loyal Yang family back in the Song Dynasty. Well, they are actually more famous for their female warriors but a series was made on the guys of the family before they all died in an eppic battle, due to the evil scheme of a disloyal minister. I know, the series was way back in 2006. Call me slow or what, I dont care..

Well, the Yang really shown what it meant to persevere till the end. They were outnumbered, gave up by their king, and watched the lost of their brothers on battlefield. Yet they yielded not to the evil force. The women of the family despite the lost of their husbands, fought in their places. The way they chose to live on with life, without their other half is really admirable. This is really saddening as it happened in real life.

The way they trusted their king is really admirable too. They stood still by their king, fought for him and he chose to not believe them, leaving them to die by themselves. I remembered the father of the Yangs said THE KING MAY CHOOSE NOT TO BELIEVE THEM, BUT THEY MUST NOT CHOOSE TO DISTRUST HIM. I mean, the die-hard loyalty is really, I dont know stupid and stubborn or just plain admirable.

However, I believe we should embraced the belief the Yangs had. When things dont seem good or rather, we are like being left alone by God, we must continue to believe in. The YANGS can trust their king who was like so muddle-headed, why cant we trust our God who has never forsaken us? He will pull us through no matter what.

The perseverance is something we got to learn too. Despite being outnumbered, like there's no reinforcement, the battle is not lost yet. Even if it is, the war is not. Continue to strive harder for there will always be people fighting alongside us. I know there are people who are with me. How about you? Watch this, it's really educational, especially for bananas like me. Haha. By the way, there are quite a number of hunks too. Pretty gals ok lar. Got 1 or 2 lor. So, what are you waiting for? GO WATCH IT. WATCHED DY WATCH AGAIN!:P

Here I Am..

I've received comments saying I THINK TOO MUCH, especially my posts which are full of philosophies. Well, what can I say? It's just my own thoughts and feelings mar! ( you know I am talking to you and about you! ). Hm, so here I am trying to post something less " philosophical" or whatever you call it, anything that makes you all happy.

Without realising it, july is here. School's koko day is over, with satisfying results for the ELS stall. The national physics and chemistry quiz is coming up. Come on, I paid 20 bucks for it. Got to at least spend some time studying! Haha! Got to send in an essay for the Hari Kepenggunaan Malaysia competition too. What else is there? Oh ya, lots of studies to catch up and works to complete. MYPG coming along too. Man, what a hectic month.

Eden finally won the Kluang Championship! Bravo! Yong Ling wrote about being 7th time lucky, I kind of wish that's the thing with me. 7Th year in STK, hope I can nail my STPM. Haha. Well, clock is ticking, time is running and I am shivering! Argh! Hope everything will be just fine at the end of the day..if you get what I mean...

Coincidence?

A friend of mine recently posted about the art class she attended when she was much younger. The topic then got us all talking about the teacher, who seems to have tutored all of us, or rather most if not all of us went for his art class before. One friend even said we might all be classmates last time round. We never know, do we?

It was the same case too in school. Several classmates and schoolmates of mine used to be primary school friends but did not have much contact ever since enrolling into respective secondary school. In STK, they found a place to reunite once more. I remembered when I first attended YF, Paulus was shocked because I perpetually tormented his life for 2 years in tuition. Neither of us thought we would be meeting each other again, not under such a condition I guessed.

Well, I did not know Daniel Eh's sister and my sister were real good friends when I entered STK and I never expected to meet a friend from another school who attended the same kindergarten as me, perhaps even classmate and to find out the niece of my mum's friend is actually my former childhood playmate. Boy o Boy, is Kluang too small or that I did come into contact with many people?

Is this what we called COINCIDENCE? However, I believe there's more to these than just pure coincidence. I think the BIG GUY up there had this all planned out. People don't just come into our lifes. They entered for a purpose and someone once said, each and every1 enriched our life when we allow them to. Hm, true yet in a way debatable, which I wont do it here. Haha. Well, I wonder who will come into my life next?

Yesterday is HISTORY, Tomorrow is MYSTERY, Today is a GIFT. I want to make the best out of every friendship the Lord has blessed me with!You with me?

So Long..

Kai Xian and Engina

Cheng Yee
King Chai

Yet another emotional weekend for most,if not all of us. Another batch of seniors will be leaving to pursue their tertiary education at respective universities comes tomorrow. It's goodbye yet again to these people, people who have bits by bits filled up certain part of my life. Well, let me just talked about a couple of them here ( I cant possibly name each and every senior, so pardon me! ).

First up, there's Kai Xian. I have known her since my primary school days in tuition. She's been a nice senior and she came to know the Lord about the same time as I am ( I think! ). Come to think of it, I forgot where exactly is she going! Sorry!

Next up, Engina. In her, I found a really nice and caring senior who took care of me ever since primary school. Of course, she and my "sis" Erin is like Twins, somehow inseparable. Haha. I seriously do miss the Leo working days. Well, she will be doing Nursing in Sunway University College. She's the one who will actually be going to the city. ( Most local U are located in pretty ulu places..Oppss)

Then, we have Lim Cheng Yee who will be doing music in UPM. Future artiste, do not be shocked if you happen to see his album! Haha. Well, I first knew of Cheng Yee as a lame guy, he still is! But his jokes do somehow bring a little joy into one's life and it's nice to be cold once in a while. Well, we certainly are going to miss his jokes, or not.By the way, he's a very very good guitarist!

Last but not least is King Chai a.k.a Ah Boon. A leader who's good with both words and people. He happened to be my senior from primary school too and somehow took care of me while I was in STK too, along with all the sarcasm and stuffs, making high school life less mundane. He's quite a girl's hearthrob I would say ( This is based on actual facts! ). Well, good at magic and playing the bass too. He's doing Political Science in UKM. I have not much of an idea about the course he's pursuing but well, I will know in time to come I guess.

Many other seniors are leaving too and I just want to wish them all the best in their uni lifes, yet another chapter in their lives. I want to say BYE BYE but as someone once said SEE YOU SOUNDS BETTER THAN BYE BYE and I know I will be seeing these people, who had made an impact in my life, one way or another very soon. Therefore, so long all my seniors!

Lessons

It all started out when I decided to check my junk mail and somehow a mail from Uncle Kwan ended up there,titled AID ON LECTIONARY READING.Even till now,I got no idea why I would received such a mail.So,out of curiousity I opened and read it.

It talked about the current world,where there are two types of people,the predator and the prey.There is this group of people who try to victimize others,the strong ones,dominating and getting the best out of situation while there is another group or weaklings who succumb to the doings of the strong ones and can do nothing about it.Jesus mixed with both these type of people yet at the same time not scandalizing one another.No matter what people said or do,Jesus mixed around and shared the gospel with these people.

Many a times,people like to come out with their own set of values,own set of rules.We always look at certain things and people with our own perspective.For instance, we tend to judge certain group of people with our set of values and then we might try avoiding them. Worst of it all,we might badmouth about them.Sounds familiar?It's like an everyday scenario I guess.It's always human nature and our inabilities to swallow our pride that causes misunderstanding,which leads to hatred.We always think if people treat me badly,I should do the same or Why should I try to be better?It's like a cycle,never stopping and the cycle grows only bigger and bigger,unless we want to resolve it.

People are born with a very good abilities of words and expressions,or simply said, GREAT MIND. So often if not, I believe we always question one's motive behind something or one's reason for his/her behaviour. We will then doubt this person, dont we? Often giving a negative perception. It's not wrong, I assure you. I believe it's normal for human beings to think like that. However, what matter most is how you deal with it.

I think we should always try to bland in with each and everyone( I am learning..) and then not be influenced by them. Yes, despise them we must not but joining them is even a bigger NO. There are couple of people I have had perceptions over their conducts and even doubt them. I dont deny I still have those thinkings but I will try to give them the benefits of doubts. It's something we should all do I think, to mix with people of all classes, sharing the gospels yet not losing ourselves in the process. Let's all talk the talk, walk the walk, not LOSE THE WAY.

Have you?

Have you ever feel disappointed over certain things or people?Have you ever feel yourself being a bump,just constantly getting into trouble?Have you ever feel inferior of yourself,like everything you do means nothing to people around you?Have you ever feel not appreciated,like 10 words of yours are not even equal to one from some people?Have you ever feel like shouting out of frustration?Have you ever regretted over a decision you made,realising it's too late anyway?Have you ever ask yourself why are you here for?Have you ever wonder where does your faith lies?Have you really discover Him?Have you?

Recent Happenings..

In a glimpse of an eye, yet another week has gone by. It's time for weekends again! It was quite a relaxing first week back into school. This was due to teachers discussing exam papers and no classes throughout the week! I guess CALM BEFORE STORM would be the phrase to describe this past week. Well, a little updates of happenings throughout the week.

The week started out with non other than going back to school. It was a familiar yet strange feeling at the same time. Finally, the juniors are settling in while we, the seniors are left with just approximately 4 months before STPM and out of school we get. A moment everyone is excited, scared yet looking forward to. All the fresh faces and discussion about teachers they got does bring back memories of 2007. Well, it's all history by the way.

It was quite fun on Monday night as we had a surprise party for Jit! I can assure you 1 thing, REVENGE IS SWEET! I am not at any point asking you to get back at anyone, okay? It's just what we did to Jit at his house on his BIRTHDAY. Flour, water and more water was his birthday present. Haha. I still do not know who's the brilliant mastermind behind this but I think everyone enjoyed attacking him that night. I embarassed myself though. Aih~

My classmates enjoyed MAFIA when we have no teacher entering our class. Haha. It was kind of funny to notice how they really indulged themselves in the game, creating really loud noise and perpetually louder noise! It was a case of mixed feelings for my exam results though. Finally, I managed to pass all 4 subjects but with 2 subjects just making the grade. Still, I guess it's a good start although it's rather late. Everyone seem to have gotten a really painful yet efficient wake up call. It seem that every student in class now is more focus and really pushing hard for STPM. Well, PU2F1 class of 08, let's gambatte together!

A good rest is for the sake of walking a longer journey( chinese proverb). Now that I have got mine ( I believe you all had yous too), let's get ready to finish the 2nd half of the year on a high!

Water

I just got back from a trip to Mersing.I wouldnt say it's a bad or a good trip,so I guess OK is the word to describe it.Spent a night over at Ying Zhi's kelong and it was rather a new experience.It's not the fancy kind of holidays most of us would prefer but it certainly does gives me a new perspective on relaxing.The calmness in the day and strong wind at night is really nice.So,thanks Ying Zhi for the hospitality!By the way,the food was great too!

Speaking about sea,I thought of WATER.Water is a very important source in our lives as all of us have learnt in science.We all need water to keep our body functioning and survive.Well,think of it from another perspective,flowing water never can be broken,right?That's just like God's love for us.Continuously running,it will never be broken.It will always be there for us.The love of God keeps us going and by His grace we are safe.Isnt that just like water?

Besides that,have you all ever been by a river?If so,have you noticed how does the river flow?It's always downstream isnt it?Christian life is just like going upstream and not down.We are called to be different and it's never an easy path.We are like going against the flow of the river,which in this case symbolises the world around us.Most of us will be comfortable following it downstream but that should not be the way.

Our lives can be compared to the sea too.The sea is not always calm.There will be waves and maybe even tsunami once in a while.It's just like stages or tests in each and everyone of our lives.At the end of the day,everything will be fine again.Water is something that will never run out,just like God's love for us all.It's up to us to decide if we want to drink water,which is whether we want to accept His love for us.

I guess as people,we are all born with a nature to try to speak our mind on almost everything,especially into our people's life.Mayb sometimes we should just give those people their deserved space and time and I believe God has already or will bring certain people into their lives to resolve those so-called "problems.Do not be tsunami to these people's lives.

Plants need water to survive.Without it,it will withered.Just like our lives,without God we will be going nowhere and withered.Right now,I do feel like a withering plant,needing "water" to rejuvenate myself once more...

What the H***!!!!!!!!

Right now I need nothing but anger management class.I am fuming at this very moment.Is there something really wrong with me or what?I've had enough of all these bullshits.Maybe I should just really study and don't give whatever else a damn.There's no point really,just making myself look like an idiot....
~$^&(#Q%$&&*)#%*)(@#(_%^#

Finally..

My holidays is here!After slogging out,maybe not really slogging out for my mid year exams,i am getting a 2 weeks semester break.What a way to end my 2nd sem in school.When I am back,it's really time to shift into turbo.Supposing to be a relaxing holidays but a little spoiler happened!Argh!I got only 34 for maths 1.That's like so bad.Every1 else did so well.The paper wasnt hard but I was careless here and there and didnt prepare well.Aih.Guess getting a little mediocre results in the previous test got my head bloated up.I took it too lightly.Well,Life goes on!Hope the rest of the papers are good.I aim for all passes.Haha

Well,the doors are finally opened for medical and people aid into Myanmar.Over 78K people had died and many are on the edge of dying.I am just so glad that UN had it sorter out.Hope that the Myanmar government will keep their word.I hope people there will be safe and able be to rebuild their lifes.The condition in China after the earthquake is getting better too.I am so glad.Miracles are happening and I believe God is really working in there.People are getting saved even after the "critical" hour.This shows nothing is impossible.I hope people will be able to see God and His grace through these 2 events.

Suddenly something cross my mind couple of days ago.As people are collecting donations,I cant help but to think of we wont have enough to help people as there are so many needs out there.However,if each and every1 just contribute one dollar.I mean EACH and EVERYONE.Even a small country like Malaysia can gather about 22 million dollar with its population.I mean,22 millions!If this is practice once a week,it will only cost us 4 bucks but we will be able to gather 88 million.This is more than enough to help people in need!People,think of it!It's really helpful providing it works.A penny of hope!Haha.

Right,till now today.Gotta blog more about my holidays soon,Stay tuned!

The Saga Continues..

Well,today is 12th May 2008.The end of my journey as form 6 junior.I am officially a senior now!The lower 6ers just registered this morning,marking the beginning of a tough yet surprising cum enjoyable or suffering one and a half years in SMK Tinggi Kluang.

Everyone went to school really early this morning.With a little help from over 50 upper 6 students,the stage was set.It was time for the students to come and register.It sort of brings back memories of last year.It felt just like yesterday where I just stood there,getting myself registered for form 6.I was put in charge of the book counter,promoting and selling books form 6 students need.Business was fantastic.Almost every junior bought their books today itself.I took like a week to get mine last year!Haha.Quite a number of familiar faces was seen this morning and lots and lots of fresh faces in school.

All in all,it was a tiring and enjoyable day.What lies ahead is a total mystery cum surprise.I am really excited to see what will these juniors bring into my life.Haha.

Not to forget,I am totally running out of time.Man,STPM is like in 150++ days.Juniors,if you are reading this,work your butt off now!Don't think of honeymoon year!

3Ms...

Been almost a week since the last entry on Eden's Day.So here I am, in front of the pc blogging when I so should be studying. Hehe. Muet exam is on thursday, speaking while the rest will be on saturday. A little nervous thinking about it. Fuh~

Well, the 3Ms I've mentioned in my title is not MEMBACA,MENGIRA and MENULIS. But rather, Master,Mission and Mate. A little something from Ryan's blog. It got me pondering on my life a little. Yes, no doubt I have known who my Master is but my Mission? No idea at all. It's like I am still trying to figure out what purpose am I here for? What are my gifts? How can I help people around me? What's the real motive behind every actions of mine? Questions after questions just popped up. Hm, the biggest of it all..HOW DO I KNOW WHAT MY MISSION IS?

I guess this is like a process in life, where we have to go through one stage before another. 1st, locating your Master, then your Mission and lastly your Mate. You cant go around without focus and orders from your Master and all the more you cant have a Mate unless you know what you want in life, right? Well, yours truly, me tend to love to skip the 2nd stage and advance to the 3rd. You would have most probably heard me saying I am looking for a gf more than I've said I am looking for a mission. Man, that's so wrong. I know and I insaf already. Haha.

Well, I guess in order to realise what my Mission is, I need to spend more time with my Master and try to learn more of Him. Our God is truly a faithful and great God. Every session of church, YF, prayer or just simply chilling with some great men who have walked with God certainly does amazed me. I envy and I do not deny I want to reach that level, but I guess all this cant be rushed. Hm..

Gotta copy something from Ryan:

Do I Want A Girlfriend?

YES!YES!YES!

But I guess before that I need to know what my Mission is, and I am single but NOT YET AVAILABLE. Something sad, right? Well, life goes on..ARGH!

Yet Another...

Today is 1st of May,which happens to be Labour Day.A day where every workers(includingt students) get a rest from the daily stress.So,yours truly got a day off.But wait,1st of May also coincide with a very important day,at least for Kluangites.Today is Eden's Day!A year had passed since my entry about Eden's Day last year.Once again,the grand event most of us were looking forward to took place today at the same place,Kg Paya Hall.There was a lot of food,fun and performances taking place right there this morning.The hall was packed with people as they kept flocking into the places.

Speaking about special things at the event,2 little kids actually won the Love Sandwich Making Contest.Very admirable,right?Both of them are brothers and the sons of Ps Paul,the "boss" in Eden.I met quite a number of my teachers and also many friends whom I have not seen for a while.Hm,some really fantastic food like the famous barney's spaghetti,vietnamese mee,japanese sushi and even curry mee.The bands were fantastic.One of them actually changed the ryhthm of Keranamu Malaysia,making it a rap and rock song.The band happened to be none other than our very own Youth Ablaze,under the leadership of Cheng Yee this year.Ryan,Lydia,Merv and Mich also came back.Faces that have been missing for awhile.It was great having the big family back together!

Well,as usual I performed puppet once again.I was also a clown again.Haha.It wasnt part of my initial plan to be a clown but well,somehow I took up the job again.It wasnt as good as the 1st time I "clowned".Well,I seem to lost a little of the joy that I am supposed to have,cant seem to share it around.Got to find the joy back.Overall,I scraped through today with a few kids being scared,NONE CRIED.I watched Spider-man 3 last year around this time.This year around it's Iron Man on the big screen.Anybody interested?

Yet another day to go down into memories.Eden's Day had and will be an event that brings tonnes of fun and joy!

S.M.I.L.E

I've learnt the art of counting days since entering form 6.Haha.So fast and it will be the month of May,mid year is approaching.A little stressed out?On the contrary,the lower 6 students will be coming in.How time flies.I still remembered posting about my form 6 registration and about school last year.What kind of juniors will I get?What kind of seniors will I be?Excited and nervous at the same time..Hehe.

When you grow older,you tend to face with more problems and you have to learn to resolve them.This truth is getting more and more real as we grow older,from day to day.Somehow,I dont like to accept this fact but at the same time I cant run away.Some,if not most of my friends seem stressed out,whether by studies or personal stuffs.I wonder if this situation only happens during teenage years?

I began to wonder if I am a hypocrite?Like I have said many times,I tend to talk the talk,but seldom walk the walk.My friends said I am deep,someone whom others cant seem to figure out.I dont agree but I dont deny that too.Contradicting with myself.Haha.Well,I've watched a few programmes lately and pondered about a question "What's the definition of HAPPINESS?"

To some,it meant chasing after monetary luxury while to others,it may mean staying together with people they love.It's just so abstract that there seems to be no specific word to describe it.I cant help but think about how some people could be so easily contented with just a simple life.Some would even find joy in helping others.There are also a group of people who dwelled in moodiness and blamed everyone for everything that happens.Whatever it is,only we ourselves can discover what does this simple word really meant to us.

I do believe somehow,a smile will always make a huge difference.Therefore everyone,smile more!There's alot of things in this world worth to be happy about.Stressed out you may be,but as long as you can smile,things will never seem impossible.

Gambatte to myself and all of you!Ah..time for nap!haha

I Am Back!

Hola!I am back to the on9 world!It's been 3 days since I last on9 and my computer had finally came back from the factory this afternoon.I certainly do miss it!Right,so what has been happening?I scratched my car,again!Been wasting my time as usual and going through certain stuffs.

Well,news came by about Mr Nada's death this morning and it pretty much shocked the school.However,some people can actually still joke about it.I don't know if I am guilty of doing it too but I guessed he deserved our last respect.It just took another hit at me that life is very fragile.Every second you have here on earth ought not be wasted.You never really know what will happen the next moment you turned around.I have been learning a lot of things the hard way and I am really not making much progress here.Time to take one thing at a time.8 more months,how much can I make out of it?

TZH is officially sick free,though still with a little bit of cough.

Figure Out..

I've figured out I am actually pretty good with words.I've figured out I have been blessed with the ability to speak and communicate better than others.I've figured out I am pretty good at analysing situations or problems.I've figured out I can actually do something if I put my heart to it,achieving what others may deemed impossible.

I've also figured out I am a rash guy,doing and saying things without thinking.I've also figured out I always do or say certain things from my point of view,what I felt is correct and not spare a thoughts about others.I've also figured out the way I talked hurts others and sometimes,if not most boastful.I've also figured out I am fast to speak and slow to listen.

I've figured all that out.So,what's next?

It's time to make the best use and minimise or cut off the bad habits of my "gifts"...

Frustration..

I know it's rather funny trying to vent my frustration here,in my blog.It's sort of like trying to gain attention but I aint.It's just I want to get certain things off and I have no better ways to channel it.Certain things are really just driving me nuts.It's tiring pretending everything is all right,putting up a brave front that I am always a cheerful guy.Argh!!!!!!I just feel like shouting out right now!Studies,family,faith and so much more.All these problems seem to continue to add on,like a snowball,growing bigger and bigger.Lord,I need Your strength to pull through,You wisdom to solve problems.If you happen to see a quieter version of me,don't be shocked.It's just me trying to give myself some space.PLUS I am still sick..

Footprints...

I think most,if not all of us have been to the seaside or a beach,right?Nothing beats a slow walk by the sea,with the cool sea breeze blowing right at you.It's just so relaxing.Well,have you ever notice the footprints you left behind on the sand while you were walking?

Someonce once said that every steps we take in life will leave footprints in the lifes of others.In other words,every action we take will certainly have its impact on one party or another.This obeys Newton's 3rd law of motion which states EVERY ACTION HAS A REACTION.Haha!This leads me to think that friends are like people who walk on the sand,leaving footprints on it.Who's the sand?We all are.Everyday of our lifes is like a diary being filled up,with different people leaving behind different footprints in our life.All the more we should treasure each and everyone of them,right?

Friendship is a special kind of relationship,built on a simple word called TRUST.Though the word may be simple,it's hard to really put it into practice.It's human nature to be protective over oneself and be wary of people around us,thus leading to us not putting total trust in people.Should this really be the way?Jesus have stated that we should Love Others Like Ourselves.Do you doubt yourself?I don't think so.I believe every single person that comes into our lives are not by chance.Sometimes we tend to outcast certain people in our lives,for any reason that is.I guess that's not something very nice to do but we are all guilty of it,right?Perhaps we should try to take off the 'spectacles' we have and try to mix around?Argh!Easy to say but hard to do..

Back to footprints.Sometimes we are walking at such a fast pace that we tend to forget to look behind,not just at our footprints but people and things we have missed out on.We tend to think the faster we reached the destination,or goal,the better it is.But if we force ourselves to walk at such a pace that we overlook other things,that's not something good hey?Or that we force ourselves to walk at other people's pace,we will end up being nowhere and crash badly.So,take your time in this stroll of life.Of course,don't take life as a lazy Sunday drive.Walk at a pace you are comfortable with and leave some really longlasting footprints in the lifes of others.

I don't really know what I am posting this.Just felt like it.It's sorta like a combination of the little stuffs I have written in each and every blogpost of mine.Just a random one..:)